fwb (feat. KILO4R)

The sun never rose on our bed
Because we'd rather keep each other in the darkness
I just can't stand to see your face
Unless it's lit up in a red shade
I have these thoughts around you
And they get worse when I'm without you
I just keep picking you roses
Even though I know damn well they'll cut me open

And cause my blood to fall
Every time I'm with you, you flood my thoughts
With these ideas too good to not
Be true. Me and you are too lucky
Often, I wanna leave you and forget us But being with you is so strenuous
You're supposed to be the one to take a load off of me
But honestly, I like you being on top of me
(Yeah) And the other night
I threw you out, tryna cut our ties
But I let you back in, not a lover's lie
'Cause we're not in love, we're each other's type
And whenever I'm feeling pain
I run back to you, so you can heal it, bae
But it's still in vain, 'cause yeah, it's gone
But this guilty pain has just filled it's place, 'cause

I know you, you know me
How do you control me
I want to just break free
But I can't leave, you saved me
You don't know the real me
When you're broken, it don't kill me
Just touch me, don't feel me
Don't feel me

I get lost, I'm in your eyes
Put me to sleep, no lullabies
Seem like they wanna see me die
Tell me I'm ok, but I'm not fine
Seem like I'm just wasting time
In my mind, stay writin' lines
Hard to sleep, hard to wait on what's mine
Harder livin', 808's on my mind
They know that I'm destined for greatness
I know that they hatin'
They mad that I'm takin' their places
My mind got no safety, it lead me to ragin'
And if I fuck up, it be back to the basics
Too many times that they lied to my face
And too many times that they showed that they fake
Too many times from the drugs I be takin'
Too many times I'll be under the pavement
Save me before I crash down
I'm 18, focused on my cash count
Used to rap way back in class, you used to laugh like I'm class clown
Now I get a bag, no lookin' back, we finna see who laugh now

I want to just break free
But I can't leave, you saved me
Just touch me, don't feel me
Don't feel me