The Only Light in the Dark I See

The closer to You I get
The further away I feel
The brighter you shine
The darker I see

How could I be so blind
A foolish life I lived
I wouldn't be here
If You never called me Yours

What kind of King would die for someone like me
Hopeless, insecure, self-centered, and lazy
Just a few of the traits on my resume
There's not a skeleton in my closet but a mortuary

When I looked Your way I was scared of what You'd see
Suppressed my little understanding, on all charges guilty
Almost died, didn't want family to see what I was hiding
But there's no escaping judgement from the Almighty

So I will sing this song
In this Light, I'll carry on
Life is a gift we chose to waste
Don't fear the dark, our regrets will one day be erased

I never thought I'd change, sang about it often
But I knew I couldn't live the way I was dying
Always chasing highs, emotionally escaping
Forgetting about the only grave that was left vacant

I don't know if I've ever felt what I now sing about
Grew up in church, but didn't have it figured out
I knew Jesus loved me, but chose deteriorating
Just to relate to counterfeit spirituality

It's funny how people who say they hate religion
Make the most religious people
Daily readings, performances, and chanting
You can't spell spiritual without ritual

So I will sing this song
In this Light, I'll carry on
Life is a gift we chose to waste
Don't fear the dark, our regrets will be erased

Open up my eyes so I can see
Your Light shining in the dark
Rip out my calloused heart
You'll deliver, I'll be alright

I won't trust in my feelings
You're close, I'll rely on facts
I won't trust in my my feelings
You won't leave, I'll rely on truth