I'm Not Full of You, I'm a Burden to Myself

No more crutches, no more strongholds
I need to fight this but I can't do it alone
I need Your help to guide me through this
Victim mentality never got me anywhere
Carry my cross then add my own weights to it
Nullify Your sacrifice with my self-righteousness
There's a lion outside, I'll be killed in those streets
But then refuse to remove my hand from the plow
To reach for Yours

Don't leave right now, I still need You
I can't run if I'm still stumbling
Life and death, well, they still scare me
But in You I have hope, so I will tarry

Your voice repeats the words I need to hear
But yet I question, Father are You coming in clear
I've seen some of Your signs, and tried reading between the lines
But I can only see dimly with this helmet on me
I tried to weigh this problem on my own
There's no question, You outweigh it
The grand departure left me excited
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
To a place I've outgrown

Don't leave right now, I still need You
I can't run if I'm still stumbling
Life and death, well, they still scare me
But in You I have hope, so I will tarry

This place I've outgrown was never a home
It just had an alluring interior
One day a light shone through the window
Then I realized I need to get out of here
Where I'm coming from isn't where I belong
It's just where I made myself comfortable
Don't leave right now, I still need You
I can't run if I'm still stumbling
Life and death, well, they still scare me
But in You I have hope, so I will tarry

I tried to fight this but I just found out I was reckless
I tried patience but that just made me even more complacent
I tried to ignore this but I cannot seem to avoid it
In order to forget these first I must face them

You'll never leave me, I'll always need You
I will run but first I'll start with walking
Life and death, well, they shouldn't scare me
But in You I have hope, so I will tarry



Credits
Writer(s): Isaiah Archuleta
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