Old Days / Insomnia

Give me some time to breathe
Everything been going so fast
Look at all the time that's passed
Fourteen years gone by in a flash
I got so many questions to ask
Why it gotta disappear just like that?
Why them thoughts gotta reappear in my nap?
I wish I could go back to the time
When I was carefree and relaxed cuz

I was a kid with a dream
I was a kid who gleamed
I was a kid who couldn't care less if I would really succeed
And never overthought about everything, never replayed all of the scenes
They said that this kid's got a bright future, I don't know if I'll get through my demons
I wasn't tryna be competitive
Put in the work, let it prove I'm the best at it
Hung with some friends I thought I'd be forever with
Feeling further away from their encouragement
When did everybody grow a pair of wings
And leave us, thinking bout it's just gonna hurt again
I wanna know
I wanna know
The world ain't used to be this cold
Uh
We all getting older
Everybody's got two people sitting on their shoulders
Pushing heavy boulders
Missing the time we didn't know life would be over
You miss them, don't ya

Train stations, no bus stops
From graphite stains to ink blots
I just hope this effort pays off
Bet I didn't know what chasing dreams cost
Mama used to take me to that sushi shop every Sunday
Made sure I was well-fed, now I gotta starve
Tryna finish up these bars
Chasing dreams is hard when you ain't got motivation, but you tryna prove em wrong
Waking up at three cuz I felt further apart
From reality, I saw a little me at the park

And that hillside we used to walk by every day
We was frolicking next to the grass for ages
And that old apartment I lived in for a decade
Walls torn down like my memory
I just wanna go back to the old days

I just wanna go back to the old days
Ain't everybody wanna go back to the old days?
I just wanna go back to the old days
Ain't everybody wanna go back to the old days?

Now I'm a kid who's lost
Now I'm a kid who's lost
Now I'm a kid who's lost

I'm in that same place
Nowhere to be found
Somebody help, there's
Over a million sounds
Movie been replaying
Now I'm reminiscing
I've been play hide and seek with my
Ambition

Three thirty on a mattress
That's where all of my doubts live
Flick of the switch and now my
Vision engulfed by the blackness
If I go to sleep, it gon be the same
So why should I close my eyelids?
Why should I close my eyelids?

Where's all the people I know?
This year done took away most of my bros
When was the last time we all got together?
I'm gonna think till it fills up this hole
I wish this year could end faster, but then next year's gonna fall on me heavily
Forty days, more like forty centuries
I just don't wanna suffer no more
I'm sorry I been ignorant
My bulb ain't been too bright, those happy moments, like my filament
They are gone
They sink into the bedsheet
I'm used to insomnia, I been searching till I can't sleep

I'm in that same place
Nowhere to be found
Somebody help, there's
Over a million sounds
Movie been replaying
Now I'm reminiscing
I've been play hide and seek with my
Ambition

I'm in that same place
Nowhere to be found
Somebody help, there's
Over a million sounds
Movie been replaying
Now I'm reminiscing
I've been play hide and seek with my
Ambition