Phosphene & Procrastination

Don't educate me wrongly
Break my procrastination harmfully
The smarter I get the less happiness
Sacrificing kills motivation

Let me play my games, let me waste my time
I said "I don't want to study and I thought that I was fine"
I did not work a single second
In the end I always regret it

I lack sleep cause I stay up playing video games
Or watching YouTube, or listening to GWA
I blame it on stress and pain I'm such a jerk
I'm a slave to myself, I cannot do any work

So don't fucking tell me
That I got plenty of time
Since it's all wasted on doing nothing
And I keep leaving work behind

When I close my eyes, head on my desk
I sometimes think of doing things that can be grotesque
I just can't take it
Too many problems, too many promises

I lack sleep cause I stay up playing video games
Or watching YouTube, or listening to GWA
I blame it on stress and pain I'm such a jerk
I'm a slave to myself, I cannot do any work

Oh
I hate everything about myself
What can I do to make myself

I'm left here because
I caused everything to fall
Doing work in the last second
Instead of doing it when I had plenty more time

My future doesn't look too bright
I keep blocking out that light
Even if I say that I will fight
I just end up going with flight

Don't educate me wrongly
Break my procrastination harmfully
The smarter I get the less happiness
Sacrificing kills motivation

Let me play my games, let me waste my time
I said "I don't want to study and I thought that I was fine"
I did not work a single second
In the end I always regret it

I care, I do, but instead, fuck it all

Open my heart
Dig deep for purpose
Justify my life

If not then I will die
Will that make you happy?
I said, I will die