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Home
Alone among four walls
And i crave to know
If there's something smart to say
Everytime I'd die to change

When I'm falling in
The day to day routine I hate
The endless, shaming memory lane

And I'd love it
If it meant something at all
But it's different when we're home

And when we kill
The frogs inside our throats
Maybe we won't be alone

You hate me
You may not say it but I feel it
And I suffer

And if I've run out of chances
I can look back
The never ending tale of you and me

And now your limits have dissolved
And your devotion has forsaken you
And now your only claim in love
Is to do the things you thought you'd never do

Sad face
We don't see each other now
Lost name
It's time we learned that time must pass
Old friend
We don't love until we cry

Sad face
I could love but I would die
Cause lost name
It seems I'm never satisfied
Lost name
I'm fond of things that pain provides
And sad face
I feel desperate in my tries
Lost name
I'll see your face when we arrive
Cause old friend
I never really came around
And my girl
I feel blessed that I can still cry

And with all these ending calls
The malfunction took its toll
But when I come you'll be the same
And I'm afraid that you're the same

The profecies were right
In the dream that's left intact
With which cannot interact
We alone remain
Those voiceless shapes remain
Our fading shadows will remain
And we stay

*I cried on the pages of the poems of our nervous young man*
Astraea come back to earth for her
*and through all eyes guilt cuts like a knife*
Bring her back the years I stole away
*I need to feel the blame*

And now I see them
All I've hurt
I'm always needing
To forget
What I've been then
And how regret
Cuts in the end

"So
It's been a rough night
I've prepared some things to say
Directed to the part of the world that does not exist anymore
For you
For me
For anybody
I'd just like to point out that it was irrational of you
To expect me to know the way to walk straight
And to expect me to know the right way to talk to people
How was I supposed to know how to respect someone
And how could I know which road to take
When everything's starting to not make any sense
And how was I supposed to know how to
Love someone
And why was I supposed to know how to raise a parent
And why can friends achieve such an easy betrayal
What does it mean to be right and what does it mean to be grateful?
It's all coming back now

Does anybody know beforehand? Does anybody care?

What principle shall we follow?
What principle shall we follow
When everything's starting to fall apart?
What principle shall we follow
When nothing works the way it's supposed to be?
And how can a mistake hurt?
How can a misstep condemn an integrity?
Who's lies are the ones we believe
And how long before we discover
Who's lies are the ones we believe
And how long before we discover a truth?
I tell you we're not who we're supposed to be
I tell you, you are not a father
I tell you, you are not a mother
I tell you, you don't know love you just repeat the word
You're repeating the words,
You're repeating the words but you don't care
You're repeating yourself but you don't care
And no thing you've never tried to understand ever really hurt you
I tell you you are not a friend
You only care to buy a way inside
Everything you can
I tell you you are not a lover
And I tell you you're repeating yourself
I tell you, I'm repeating myself because you're repeating yourself
I tell you we are only safe back home
The only place where we're alone"

It keeps coming to me every time I'm
Home
The image of two figures jumping deep in the unknown
Breaking on the walls with something beating in their chest
And it fuels the poison ratio in my veins I'm going to burst
And cry the apple tears
Cause I feel sure carving this moment in my brain
Trembling hands and knees to muck up
The sheets of the unknown

Deformed faces in the coming shades but there is no one by the door
Waking up but I'm not sleeping
Shoving touches in your soul

Waking up I wasn't dreaming
Sleeping here with your hair around my nose

And as I am now worse than a nobody
I wish that even now it means something
That we change