Missing You

This that old school vibe
Talk my shit
Missing you
Tell me where the road turns

I used to want a place where niggas understood my heart
Until I found out solitary peace is what I want
Spirit is everything and all our energy is God
The universe handed a gift somewhere in the stars
I get anxious when I think about my destiny
Niggas is waiting, lack of patience never set me free
Generational hatred broken once I rest in peace
Can't be complacent, I got unborn mouths to feed
Am I naive taking control of what's next for me
Playing creator like I'm knowing what's best for me
What's in my favor will be taken selectively
Its God's plan, I'm just moving successfully

That's the type of shit I'm on right now
Its God's plan forreal
I been reading a lot about that shit. Just about
Manifestation in everything, what's meant to be is meant to be
That's how I look at it. I'm trying to bring in positivity
With myself, for everything
Only so much control a man has
I'm done with that bullshit
I'm done with that negativity I gonna keep it going

I used to want a milli till I made like fifty bands
But it ain't make a difference, money never made a man
I'm looking back at old pictures, look like Peter Pan
Nobody hold me down quite like the ceiling can
I still want a milli, different motivation though
To see my people pay for school without them taking loans
And see my niggas see they vision without oath
That's why I'm saving money, never see me saving hoes
If ignorance is bliss, its time to start stepping up
They tell me my complexion really isn't meant for much
Darker the berry, so refreshing, its a sweeter punch
Don't let nobody try to tell you you ain't street enough
Don't let nobody try to tell you you ain't keeping up
Trust the spirit, mask off once they speaking up
Hate is fear and love is fog, but I don't see enough
That's why I'm gone out the window, middle finger up

That's really what I'm on lately
I'm just tryna do better with everything, like
I woke up today to do a little cardio, take my seamoss
Trying to stay active
Lord knows niggas will try to keep you down
Hate to see you winning

Breaking even
Is there a story behind that
Yeah. Just learning a lot last couple years
Learning a lot this year especially
In regards to what
Everything. Like growth as a person
You know, growing myself as a person, as an artist
Realizing a lot that I dealt with at a young age
And when I say breaking even
I picked that name because
On the surface level it seems like I'm just trying to break even with this music shit
You know, invest some money in it you wanna get that money back
But its deeper than that really
I realized that
That whole expression "hurt people hurt people" you know like
You take a loss, you wanna get back
Its all about as people we wanna retaliate even if its not direct
So you might've dealt with something at a young age and
As an adult you do the same thing to somebody else
Cuz you think you bouta get even
Somebody take one of yours you wanna get back
Like an eye for an eye
Type shit even if its not direct you don't even realize it
You know, so
Its really about me coming of age
I just turned twenty-two I'm now realizing a lot of things
About myself. About life