fallinbowie. - Radio Edit

Been a helluva year
Been bodyin' my thirties na; I've conquered some fears
Twenty twenty in my twenties, my vision's been clear
I lost some peoples but honestly, fk'em you hear?
Let's be clear

I've done dirt, proven my worth, when I disperse
It's not because of so-called hurt
I peeped game, believed in y'all; the gift of my curse
Been told some foul st from ns I'd support til the hearse
It's funny 'cause people change and rearrange then show their fangs
When things appear like magician tricks 'cause their lead astray
My garden's lit; been plottin' some things
My growth is beautiful but y'all just wanna complain; mighty strange

I took y'all advice as I built up my team (my team)
Y'all said to focus on fulfilling the dream (the dream)
So then I focus, now y'all causin' a scene (a scene)
Y'all swear I flipped the script and split up the screens
Whatchu mean?

Sometimes I wish that my third eye
Was really blind and not aligned to my conscious mind
My heart is kind and sees the ties as petty cries
Gorgeous minds with ugly souls that need to die
They watch my timelines like an MCU rewatch
Lookin' for hidden messages in my character
Treating me like I got an EGOT
Na please stop, I show what I want you to see
A Scarlet Witch plot

Speakin' of which, I see all the shifts
I had some ns say I had to get rid of M. J. to grow a bit
Been locked for twenty plus and carried my mother
Why would I dead a muthafka who I love as a brother? He was there
Front row, him and Justin, my other brother
Where were y'all? Who said they'll show but chose to duck us
Broken words from lost ns who need a compass
I'll find'em later 'cause what they're doing ain't worth the ruckus

For real, but who am I? A loser, a na that you despise?
I am not even surprised, angry words that you disguised
As real st; your guise is a lie, can't deny
It's time that I wave goodbye but why?

I ain't wanna kill Manolo
Ns always talkin' and plottin' but never show though
The bes always stalkin' and floppin' but on the low though
They paint it up and slander your character for a photo for real
A post, a tweet, that st is so weak
If I retaliate, you ns would cancel me for a week
At the least, sheesh

That's why I bite the bullets sent for me
Not for the glory, they victimize and change the story
For people's validation who don't even know me
Listen how that sounds my na, that st is corny
They said I had to get over death; it's better for me
They said I wasn't raised the best, then would ignore me, it's crazy

How the hell we 'posed to build?
When ns and bes ain't respectin' your words and skills?
When ns and bes movin' selfishly in the field?
Then feel a way when I do the same and st's revealed but chill

Your true intentions, your true feelings, them hidden statements
The hidden tension with zero healing, they cannot face it
They hate themselves, they force projection; they can't embrace it
I'm doin' me, and do as I please while I'm changin' faces
From bitter women who will not listen 'bout my decisions
To bh ns who feelin' triggered about my business
Your inconsiderate, let's call a spade a spade
Your ways don't get a praise
Yet I'm thankful for your stay but wait

I have to stay away like a distant cousin
Or loved one you robbed in every way
Now you lookin' up and just wonderin' how we got this way
Ain't no need to wonder my na, y'all played the hands you played
For real