winterinsevern. - Radio Edit

Alterations in many cases, not too specific
They lookin' at me and sayin' "Michael you movin' different"
You know they feel it when they sayin' out your full name
I tell'em "don't you worry, I just notice who ain't true game"
Too many times where I'm sacrificing what's known to me
With good intentions I did it, that's how it's 'posed to be
But hurtin' me in this mentally and emotionally
It put me on a path of this self destruction, enclosing me
I'm losin' myself, I see I'm movin' this hell
I need get this jawn from 'round me, it ain't doin' too well
Who really here for me?
To be honest I don't know bro
'Cause those I thought were for sure just showed me it was for show
Yeah, it's gettin' a lil' personal
I told myself that I would forget not just forgive
That trauma that I deal with been stuck in me like a shiv
Been wonderin' if the means really justify all the ends

Through all my sticky situations I just saw it through
Got your guard up 'cause you don't see the God in you
Chin up chest out arguin' at the BBQ
'Cause everybody that you looked up to wasn't hard as you
And they been gave Mally the torch
They still wearin' dirty shorts, smokin' Ports on the porch
I mastered what life gave me now they made me remorse
Tryin' be the better n 'round nothin' but w
Can never be the better n in a room full of sinners
And I just threw them toxins in me 'cause my liver a blender
I see you n dance around the facts and juggle the truth
Circle 'round your pride, shoot dice with your youth
Put your d the fire, sit ya a on the stoop
Talkin' outside your neck, like you better than who?
Man that s is like whatever, tell your lies to fools
And I love you like a brother n
You ain't got lie dog

I try to live the in moment
But then I get lonely
I'm wonderin' daily
Don't know where it take me
I'm hopin' I own it
Try to live the in moment
But then I get lonely
I'm wonderin' daily
Don't know where it take me
I'm hopin' I own it

Tethered pieces scattered amongst my Mona Lisa's
I thought about this for hours, anxiety increases
Tryin' heal within the same environment you've been dyin' in
That you've been lyin' in, why you inside of it?
I found comfort with the strain and the pain of my past
I ask myself "why?" Prayin' this feeling won't last
I miss the conversations that I would have with my dad
We're still connected, just the feeling ain't once what we had
But such is life
If I died tomorrow, I would be satisfied how I lived my life
But then again, there's several sins I won't live twice
But then again, there's several wins I would live thrice
The perfect balance of my decisions is what I yearn
My book is far from finished; watchin' the writtens return
In the form of blessings; watchin' the way of my words
I'm speaking careful, what you speak is what you affirm
What you think becomes reality
Kinda crazy when you realize you've lived through so many tragedies
I just hope that my mother is truly proud of me
Yeah, I've done some things but her protection empowers me
Yeah, this is all God given
I'm merely a just vessel delivering written visions
It's not who I was but who I am
My yesterdays are over with, the future's in my hands

I try to live the in moment
But then I get lonely
I'm wonderin' daily
Don't know where it take me
I'm hopin' I own it
Try to live the in moment
But then I get lonely
I'm wonderin' daily
Don't know where it take me
I'm hopin' I own it