Grown-Up

I'm so scared of being grown-up
What the hell am I supposed to do
When eighteen is just around the corner
And I don't got a fucking clue?
All my old friends show off their new friends
It's been years, we've changed, and it would be nice
To meet up again, would it still be the same
After all this time?

I was too polite to admit that I was in pain
2:00 a.m. on the floor, perfect picture, rusty frame
I've been gone for years, do they still remember my name?
I would do anything to get things back to the way
They were before I had to start

Acting like a grown-up
Acting like a grown-up
Cuz I don't want to
Don't wanna be a grown-up
Don't wanna be a grown-up
But I wanna know everything they do
Growing up too fast
Don't know how to make it last
Stuck in between the future and the past
I'm acting like a grown-up
I'm acting like a grown-up
But I don't want to

Everyone around me knows what they're doing
They got jobs and love and smiling faces
How perfect it must be to live the teenage dream
I feel like I might've missed it
Billions of people, you're supposed to find the one
But I always tend to put myself second
I tell everyone I've got big plans
Like a teacher who doesn't know the lesson

I was too polite to let anyone else help me
3:00 a.m. computer light, I know this can't be healthy
I've been spending so much time looking for apartments
That I stopped spending time looking for what my heart wants
Maybe it's just because

I'm acting like a grown-up
I'm acting like a grown-up
But I don't want to
Don't wanna be a grown-up
Don't wanna be a grown-up
But I wanna do everything they do
One day when I am grown-up
One day when I am grown-up
Will it be brand-new?
So when I am a grown-up
So when I am a grown-up
Will I know everything they do?

(Maybe we just write stories)
(Because we know that we can't live them)
(I think we keep writing stories)
(Because we know that we can't live them)

I'm 'bout to be a grown-up
I'm 'bout to be a grown-up
And it's a shitshow
How do you be a grown-up
How do you be a grown-up
When nobody else seems to know?

Is this the end of the coming-of-age movie?
(No more football field friends or rooftop sunrises)
Please don't end the coming-of-age movie
(No more kissing in cars and sneaking out nights)
Is this the end of the coming-of-age movie?
(No more whispering on the phone so our parents don't wake)
Please don't end the coming-of-age movie
(No more laughing in the parking lot during our hard days)
Is this the end of the coming-of-age movie? (Baby
You're my best friend) (So scared of being grown-up)
(No more football field friends or rooftop sunrises) (I'm so
Scared of being grown-up, so scared of being grown-up)
Please don't end the coming-of-age movie (I don't
Want this to ever end)
(So scared of being grown-up)
(No more kissing in cars and sneaking out nights)
Is this the end of the coming-of-age movie? (I'm so
Scared of being grown up
So scared of being grown up)
(No more whispering on the phone so our parents don't wake)
Please don't end the coming-of-age movie
(No more laughing in the parking lot during our hard days)