Joyful Denial

Pain
Is some shit that comes with personalised info cards
Delivered quietly at your door step
Free shipping for packages you didn't ask, no returns, VATs, long prep
Throw in depression, the good cousin
Hearing hits that be bussing from the 6 by 9s like
"To swallow and nothin"
"The perfect writhing" or
"Good brain, hard splatting"
And I've felt pain, heavy depression same
But this is different
Cause I swear I'm in a good plane
I'm in a good place
Things feel rosy
Days are happy
Creatively wealthy
Mind's sharp, always ready
Focused, keeping steady
I swear I'm happy
But it just feels like I'm lying

Joyful denial
Yeah yeah yeah
Take the scales off my eyes
I wanna see, I wanna see
Joyful denial
Yeah yeah yeah
Take the scales off my eyes
Oh yes, oh yes

You know
I'm where I hoped to be
In that phase I'd always see
Heavily felt would be the master key
To unlock this mind cage, finally set me free
And I'm who I longed to be
Humming bird, bumbling bee
On the path of "aim to achieve"
Unrelenting, still tryna be a better me right
So why the sneaky tears and sadness?
Why do my eyes lose sleep deep in the darkness?
Why am I wary of a certain madness?
And taking actions that show a type of hardness?
It's meant to be strength and positivity right?
Happy people don't cry in bed at night
Right?
Happy people don't do shit like that

Joyful denial
Yeah yeah yeah
Take the scales off my eyes
I wanna see, I wanna see
Joyful denial
Yeah yeah yeah
Take the scales off my eyes
Oh yes



Credits
Writer(s): Chimdi Daniel Okafor
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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