two truths and a lie

I'm paranoid at night when i'm the only one outside
And i'm good at hide and seek but only if i get to hide
And I'm scared of my own shadow and I walk fast when I'm cold
And i cant wait to get wrinkles but i'm scared of growing old

And i wish that i was normal and i wish that i was cool
And though Brandt would disagree, i wish i was a happy fool
And i wish my skull could open, i'd pour ice into my brain
And i wish that everyday i wouldn't feel like i'm insane
And I love to go on dates but i'm terrified of sex
And i take six pills each morning and i don't get side effects
And my skin can feel constraining like the steel toes in my boots
And i can sleep in corduroys but i can't sleep til when i choose

And i wish that i was normal and i wish that i was cool
And though Brandt would disagree, i wish i was a happy fool
And my walls are fully covered in pictures and magazines
And i think i know what love is even though i'm just nineteen

I... I'm tired of trying
I've done my best
I'm not scared of dying
Life's not a test

I... I'm tired of trying
I've done my best
I'm not scared of dying
Life's not a test

I fuckin' wish that i was normal and i wish that i was cool
Fuck Brandt, he doesnt get it, i'd be HAPPY AS A FOOL!!!!!
And i scream and cry and lose it if i haven't done my best
And i'm scared of giving up, but i'm giving it a rest
And i'm scared of giving up, but i'm giving it a rest