one month later

*Whistling*

I used you as a walker
Now i need to grow a pair
And i've never met a talker
Who could share the thoughts we shared

And the best days of my life
Were spent with eyes as green as apples
I can't walk without your light
It's like i'm back into a tadpole again

And now i'm calling you a friend
I lost my partner, i need backup
Yet you're in my life again
And that is all that i could ask of

I've got my hands on the wheel
For the first time
They miss your hair, i miss your laughter
But i'll be alright

It's for the better
I will get better
And you'll forget me or you won't
I won't forget the life we had
I could never
And i'll get better

My illness stuck the knife in
And i meant to pull it out
I grabbed the handle but i twisted
And your veins began to spout

I was drowning in blood
Didn't stop to check the source
Barely kept my head above
And it only made you worse

How dare i call myself a raisin
When i rung you like a mop?
Didn't realize i was face-in
'Til three days after it all had stopped

I've got my head in the clouds
For the first time
I miss your smile, i miss your patience
But i'll be alright

*Whistling*

Da da-da da-da-da da
Da-da-da da-da da da
Beep-bop-boop Bee-dee-dop-doop
Bah-bah-bah bah-dah-dah-dah

It's for the better
(Exposure therapy
Is driving by your house)
It's for the better
(You texted my best friend
To say that you were proud)
It's for better
(I want to ask you but
I'll wait another week)
It's for the better
(Please get a coffee with me.)
(Please get a coffee with me.)