Missing You

There's a hundred million things I never said to you
Cause I said I never pressure you

And if I'm being honest that's not fair to you
So, take care of you

You only got half the story so I gotta be honest
I been fighting with my demons, definitely haunted

I been running around in circles trynna help myself
I can't find it

So lately I've been thinking if I hurt myself
Would that solve it?

It won't, never mind that it can't
Drip the blood from my hands, stain the legs of my pants
Can you feel me?

My best friend lays in her grave and I keep close touch to her ashes
Lay in bed with her bunny plush toy hold it close when I have it
You won't ever have nothing like this, set flames if it happens
You won't ever get close enough so stop the capping

You won't ever get close enough
I lay in her bed is that close enough?
Talk to your mom is that supposed to suck?
Speak to her sister are we both enough
To make each other, feel good?

Security and all the questioning, just like we always would

Back when we were younger, we would do a lot of drugs
And that's the reason why you're gone but I can't seem to give it up
So, I just tear myself to pieces and I make myself throw up
Because I'm Hating who I am, but I will love who I become

And that's inspired by you, and you know that's true
Because you said imma good dude
You said you know how I do
You said you feel my pain and I felt yours too
But now it's too late
You know I'm missing you

There's a hundred million things I never said to you
Cause I said I never pressure you

And if I'm being honest that's not fair to you
So, take care of you

You only got half the story so I gotta be honest
I been fighting with my demons, definitely haunted

I been running around in circles trynna help myself
I can't find it

So lately I've been thinking if I hurt myself
Would that solve it

It won't, never mind that it can't
Drip the blood from my hands, stain the legs of my pants
Can you feel me?