Rain

I'm raining tears but when I look in the mirror
I knew I was in some emotional pain but if I was suicidal
I'd overdose on cocaine to be aware
If my former best friend is listening to this
I'd say I thought you cared when I was there
But you decided to go back to someone I don't like because of a fight
I could've went insane when I have the right to defend myself
I drained my happiness until I left her without her knowing
I had to repair my rap skills after I left
Then I had to look at the bright side to know I can still do it
I just have to share the bullshit I've went through
I don't complain on the shit I write for muthafuckas
Now I ain't wrong for that

I'm walking in rain cause I'm in pain
I want to faint somewhere when people are around
But if I never had a brain
I'd be brain dead but the pain will keep coming again and again
Then I'd have to seek some help so I can remain in this genre
That I'd still share a lot of shit I've gone through from last year
Because I want other people to be happier than me

Back when I was in between 3rd to 8th grade
I was bullied for having a toy because I'm autistic
These muthafuckas annoyed me
Because they thought it was a good deed
When I did that part myself
Because they ain't worth my time
Surely I'd employ these muthafuckas with a low pay no wait
I'd destroy them for not having too much good comebacks
After partly roasting them
At least I have a heart to be a good guy
I want to enjoy life instead of be in misery
I want joy to other people as well
I'd say I'm smart enough to not waste my time to someone without loyalty currently
I changed my rap name because I want a restart on my rap career
Even though I've been in the genre

I'm walking in rain cause I'm in pain
I want to faint somewhere when people are around
But if I never had a brain
I'd be brain dead but the pain will keep coming again and again
Then I'd have to seek some help so I can remain in this genre
That I'd still share a lot of shit I've gone through from last year
Because I want other people to be happier than me

I'm sad and mad when I think about being played
By a lot of fuckas
And
Am I the bad guy for leaving someone that made me miserable?
I'd want to be the Chad to prove muthafuckas I still got it
I don't fall for tricks like that no more
I test them before I tell the bad to go away
Then I had to quickly not to attract anyone
Because I ain't doing that today or any day
Because I'd rather stick to rap and YouTube
Cause I want to show fans on what I got
If I had a chick, I'd stay with them for 6 months plus
Let's add the fact that if I made people's day
I'd be the G-O-A-T
I'm glad to be back to this shit again
I'm still in the rain