Parents

You raised me to do my best
And to not be depressed
So I wear these clothes tainted with lies that I've said
Thank you for all that you've done
I swear it was all in good fun
I swear I write this music cause you guys are the only ones
That I want to impress while my mind is compressed
In these depressing emotions that I keep so suppressed

I know I don't talk much though you raised me all my life
I'm so sorry
But sometimes my anxiety spikes
And I want to be alone in my room full of silence
While I wonder what your life would be if I were dying
I love you guys to death
Though I'll hate myself till death
But you raised me to do my best
So I will keep it all suppressed

So I sit with my guitar at my desk that we built
And I cry
And the strings they are soaked with my guilt
I lie to you and say I don't know why I have attacks
When it's my want for dying
Please I just only want that
Please forgive me as a son
For I'm the only one
That walks this slow walk
While I only want to run.

I know I don't talk much though you raised me all my life
I'm so sorry
But sometimes my anxiety spikes
So I sit with my guitar at my desk that we built
And I cry
And the strings they are soaked with my guilt
I want to run home where you all wait for me
I want to say goodbye to the people I call family

I want to end it quick
But there is no way I can
Because I don't even know the reason why I ran
So I sit with my guitar at my desk that we built
And I cry
And the strings they are soaked with my guilt
I know I don't talk much though you raised me all my life
I'm so sorry
But sometimes my anxiety spikes