Since Before

I'll make new memories
In all of the places that make me think of you
When I kiss someone new, I'll heal a little more
From everything you put me through

I used to blame myself
Because you kept hurting me the same way, and I stayed
But now I blame it all on you
You were lying to yourself and you were lying to me too

Someone's gonna look at me with love
And I'll feel like I haven't felt since before I knew you

And they'll hold me in their arms
And show me their love, like you wouldn't do

I'll probably never know what went wrong
Despite every opportunity,
You refused to talk about your feelings

Yeah I wish I could know, but I'll still move on
It's not the first time I've had to move forward
Without hearing any word from you

Now, I don't blame myself
For every time you put me last
Babe, the blame is all on you
Instead of ending this months ago
You pretended you wanted it too

Soon someone's gonna speak to me with love
And I'll feel like I haven't felt since before I knew you

And they'll tell me what's in their head
And wanna know what's in mine, like you wouldn't do

Laying in bed, I was looking at your back
I told you it didn't really feel like you loved me back
And you smiled
Then we were face to face, tears covering only mine
I said "I don't feel like you've cared about me for some time"
And you said, you said that you'd try
I deserved so much more than "try"

And even if I'm the only one who looks at me with love
I still feel better than I've felt, since before I knew you
Oh my g-d, it feels good to be free
Oh my g-d, it feels good to be free!