Closure

I woke up an hour
Before my alarm today
But that didn't stop me
From being late to everything
And I made a coffee
Just so I could feel something
Cause maybe anxiety
Is better than apathy

So I'll go on a dangerously
Fast drive past that place
That ground me to dust
With a molcajete
In hopes that it might simply
Wither away ay ay ay ay ay YAY

So I'll put on my blithe face
You'll assume that I'm callous
But I'm really just hiding
The thoughts I'd love to
Give to you
About how you screwed me over
And questioned every part of me
And smeared me with lies to
Everyone you know but me
And sometimes I wonder
If you just love the closure
Of people dying

They say April showers
Lead to May flowers
But I'm allergic to pollen
And a real woman
Likes to shut her mouth
But I'm afraid of the silence

So what do you want me to say
Nothing
Okay

And sometimes I wonder
Do you just love the closure
Of people dying