Daffodil

I been walking around at night (solo)
I love watching the traffic lights (dolo)
I love seeing the folks get close cause it's cold
I imagine I have their life
I imagine smiles hugs and kisses
I imagine arguments about the dishes
I create a whole scene know what I mean
When I see them hold hands and walk off into the distance
How often are you alone with your own thoughts
I mean staring at the ceiling of your room thoughts
Do you really listen what you gotta say
Or do you push it away and continue with your own plot
They say the you no one sees is the real you bare
Lately it's just been me and me up there
Tryna get aquatinted honestly I'm scared
Cuz I'm finding I ain't vibing with the me upstairs

I been feeling on my own out here
I been feeling all alone
I don't really pick the phone up here
I don't answer when they call
I been feeling on my own out here
I been feeling all alone
I don't really pick the phone up here
I don't answer when they call

I decided 'fore the 'rona I would dial my phone up and call for help
Start being honest with myself but then I
Pushed it back and I kept on pushing
And blew up on all the people who were only looking
Out for me honestly what really stings
I still haven't got the help that I really need
The therapy is calling me
But I decline everytime what's wrong with me
All I really want is for people to like me
Look at me and say "Now that's someone who I'd be"
Attention and a mention speak of me kindly
I'm lost a sea with no paddle please come and find me
A tell myself that I'm too in my head
But how do you get out when it makes you so scared
And how do you talk about things that make your teeth clench
I suppose you talk about while a beat plays I guess

I been feeling on my own out here
I been feeling all alone
I don't really pick the phone up here
I don't answer when they call
I been feeling on my own out here
I been feeling all alone
I don't really pick the phone up here
I don't answer when they call