Beef

I didn't turn to you when I was fucked up
Crying
I didn't turn to you when that gun flashed
Thought I was dying
I didn't turn to you
Because I knew it wouldn't help no body
I didn't turn to you because I knew I'd have to do it on my own
Do it on my own
Mhmmm

How can I be vulnerable when I really grew up with killers
The same niggas that I fought were killing people for dinner
Remember Troy took a spike and then he snuck behind my mom
If I didn't see that nigga she'd be gone
Some shit I never tell the fam cause there was blood in the streets
Some nights I had to pray for just surviving the week
I couldn't live for myself or be involved with police
I took a knife everywhere I knew that talking was cheap
What's beef to never leave your home without a weapon
Beef when people put a bounty on your head
Beef
When people start to target your related
Beef ain't nothing getting squashed until you're dead

Even when I left the city
All of them were dropping like flies
Kendell tried to change his life and yet they left him to die
That man had a 9 to 5 for the first time
That man tried to change his life for the first time
Nigga what's beef when you at McDonald's and then guns glaze
When you shoot back but you fall first
When you on the news as a black man
They don't know your heart and that's it's all hurts

I knew you wanted better
Cause you smiled when you talked about your job
You ain't wanna go to jail cause you knew you'd just be letting down ya mom
You was on the block getting busy but you always wanted more
You said that you would make it out but niggas wanted you to fall
Too their level and you did
Have a shoot out
Bet you did
Take a life
Bet you did
Take your life
And it did
I didn't turn to you when I was fucked up
Crying
I didn't turn to you when that gun flashed
Thought I was dying
I didn't turn to you
Because I knew it wouldn't help no body
I didn't turn to you because I knew I'd have to do it on my own
I'll do it on my own
Mhmmm