convolution of comfort

Comfort invokes a plethora of sensations
Comfort is an aspect of people's foundations
Comfort can be completely joyous
Comfort also has the ability to destroy us

My boyfriend's encompassing embrace
Certainly relaxes my headspace
He loves in an unconditional way
He comfort me in a way that may be cliché
But he motivates me to pursue what I adore
And write until it's what I'm known for

The challenge of wordplay
Brings me comfort all day
I express nearly every thought
And utilize the skills that I've self-taught

My work and my love
The ideas that aid me to rise above
The mere stagnation of being still
And provide me with a strong will

Sometimes comfort comes from familiarity
Sometimes comfort comes from clarity
But when I've lived purely in my comfort zone
I couldn't progress and I felt so alone

My comfort zone didn't allow me to change
My comfort zone was undoubtedly strange
Considering it was full of crippling depression
As well as self-destruction and a powerful obsession
With self-criticism and intentional restriction
Sometimes the comfort enhances my addiction
I have felt so comfortable and set in my ways
Not willing to change, being stuck in the maze
Of my racing thoughts and the back-and-forth
Sometimes I go south, sometimes I go north

But I know the more that I get old
I'll continue to realize that a balance of both
Will merely continue to enhance my growth

So, what does comfort mean to me?
The answer to that is uncertain as the sea
It can mean being completely stuck
Or it can mean the water is rolling off my back like a duck

I find positive comfort in random things
From autumn, to weed, to accessories like rings
And driving on the highway, blasting my tunes
Beside someone I love, feeling as invincible as cartoons

If whoever is reading this is confused how I feel
Trust me, my own internal confusion is real
And I truly wish my thoughts were clear
I feel like I'm being controlled by a puppeteer
Sometimes comfort is a beautiful feeling
But discomfort helps me progress in my healing