c.r.a.x.i.s.(.b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l.d.r.e.a.m.e.r.)

I planned my whole life in this one town,
Meet my future wife near a small part of downtown,
Understand the fact and the ways of the land,
This is place that I knew firsthand even when I threw my cap and gown,
I meet and made,
Some friends turned the page,
Others judged the book and threw it away,
Different their lives went,
Married before 19,
Buried under just a routine,
Kid was a sophomore teen,
Talking about a wedding please,
Made me want to have one,
But fair that,
Be that from me,
Can't imagine those years taken from you,
Just because you had to prove everyone wrong.
Still you're the one,
Every Ex I was learning,
He was a crippling need,
Funny how a ring made me and you bleed.
I worked a 9 to 5,
I was happy,
I was genuine,
I was alive,
No decline,
I was finally good this time,
Mood finally changed,
Easy how new friends can make an old life go away,
I could be myself,
Not act cool for other selves,
Be me and see what an impact being truly free,
Sad some people just take life how it should be.
Stuck in the same old,
Had to break the cycle,
Struck the game bold,
I do not look to you as a rival,
Luck is something I hold on to,
My parents didn't think twice,
A stiff drink kinda seems nice,
Wasn't thinking when I was low,
Asking is there anything from taking one more,
Thought about my whole life,
It's the only way to escape my life,
It's a disease,
It makes you freeze,
I don't understand until I took one more,
Sometimes I just don't want to be here anymore,
Dominos fall in like a place like an album I showcase,
Guess my value like show us your case,
Deal or No Deal what's in the case for me,
Fortune on the wheel like spin me please,
If I get to close please don't call it jeopardy.
Thought about my whole life in this just one desert city,
Now it's the main reason I join the hurt committee,
I literally left everything,
Nothing to my name,
Just maybe a couple of songs with a couple of plays,
These words are long and prolong the time I have to choose,
Between crosswords and crossroads I have a lot to lose,
To stay here or be hurt forever,
Or to see what's it's like to be free,
And I don't know,
And I wish I could get out of my fear,
Cuz I'm alone,
And I don't wanna hurt nobody,
Because I still feel for the loneliest somebody,
I'm still trying to deal with this crisis,
I'm okay,
I'm okay,
I'm okay being Craxis.

Beautiful dreamer, (dreamer so beautiful)
Beautiful dreamer, (oh I do not know)
Beautiful dreamer, (so beautiful)
Beautiful dreamer, (oh where is my soul)
Beautiful dreamer, (woah where is my soul)
Beautiful dreamer, (I do not know)
Beautiful dreamer, (oh)
Beautiful dreamer, (oh so beautiful)