That's just how i feel (Shamanistic Ditty)

Trauma
Piling over and over
I hate myself
And all these
Memories
I can't stop thinking about the past
It means
Too much
To me
I just
Want to feel happy
But these thoughts wont
Let me be
I just want to enjoy
Time with my friends
But the dread I feel
Never ends
I don't know
What
Else
To do

My choices are my own
Doing what pleases me
But
I want to change
I don't want this anymore
My enemy is myself
My choices are my own
Yet I don't
Feel in control
Everyday I'm a different me
And
Even though I try my hardest
I know it isn't good enough
I lie to myself and others
Takes me years to accept the past
I'm a cowardly piece of shit
I'm not happy with myself
And I just want to let you go
And maybe the only way to do that
Is to die
It's my fault
Cause I waste my fucking life
So why the fuck should I be alive
And that's just how
I feel
About myself



Credits
Writer(s): Mikah Anguay
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