Funeral

If everything goes wrong I hope I praise your name
If my self hatred progresses and it takes me away
If what I'm feeling like the end of the world becomes the end of the world
I hope I hold tighter than ever my faith
Hope I make it till I'm 90 and I got grey hair
Hope I meet my grandchildren, maybe children of theirs
Hope I realize life is bigger than what's making me scared
Hope I realize life is bigger than what's making me scared, look
Hope I make passed 18, hope I do survive
And I hope I don't make my family worry bout suicide
Hope I don't spend my life wondering "who am I"
And God I hope that I don't take for granted what you provide
Hope I learn to grow as time passes and things change
And I hope I can change along with it but maintain
Who I am and when it's difficult I don't change lanes
Silly but with wisdom on when I keep a straight face
And I hope that I'm happy with myself but not content
Find joy in things that please God and do not conform to sin
By golly I hope I can make it passed where I began
And not flex because I did it but give it to those who can't
I wanna give it back
Everything that I made
But will I waste my life if I just give it all away
If time is really money and we are what we get paid
Then age is not a number but our number's just an age
And I won't be defined
By what's in my account
No matter what I make, it can't fix me when I'm down
For if I'm sad then I'll be sad no matter the amount
Cause with the greatest height comes the fear of falling down
But I keep looking down, mortified of where I've been
But if my head is down, hows my body gone ascend
My possibilities of getting better's getting slim
I wanna make it where I'm going, not where I have been
I'm not living in the past

Now when I'm gone, don't be sad about it
Everything was going perfect, tragic had to balance
Not a single complaint about my life here on earth but
I just want you to know that I'm in a better palace
If this is playing at my funeral, just know I miss you
If I could only say one thing to who I'm writing this to
I know the Christian life can seem hard but that's not an issue
Just know the scenery is beautiful where faith gets you
Hope you meet me up here one day and the time is near
Looking for your way to Heaven, you can find it here
In the Bible, don't let anything else interfere
I see you all rejoicing, I can even kind of hear

Yeah I'm feeling safe now as I'm looking down, mama
Hope you stay proud of how I'm turning out, mama
Music playing loud I can't turn it down, mama
I can hear the trumpets and I love the sound, mama
Now I just want to say I love you all
And I hope life is still amazing when I'm uninvolved
Go out glorifying God, it's life as usual
Thank you all for coming, I welcome you to my funeral