As I Lay

As I lay

As I lay down
Fill my heart with song
Time will write the wrongs
Many men will fall
As I lay down
Burning in the flame
Withering my soul
Memories of your smile
As I lay

I just want you to feel
I just want you to feel
One last time
As I lay down
Covered in the muck
Drowning in your love
I can't get enough
(As I lay down)

Lately, I've been suffering, broken, hollow, alone, hopeless
My baby crying, I ain't got enough for the abortion
Mama disappointed
Trying not breakdown, relapse
Turn this beanie to a ski mask, saying fuck you
I saw my friend die
He grew up with me
His face turned grey
No longer was he struggling
His body layed, lifeless on the floor right in front of me
Last words he said to me "remember me"
May he Rest In Peace
Voices in my head again
Falling in the black, I was drowning in my detriment
Questioning everything I've accepted as the truth, I've been misled
I can't comprehend it, so I question it
Who are you?
What are you?
When are you?
Where are you?
Why are you, even doing this?
Feels like everything I try to do just leads to ruin and, everybody saying they love you but where's the truth in it?
Ain't no proof in it
Instead misled defenseless men repent with led
The head that bled the crest to red
The mess that's left on steps to threats address was blessed
The breath of death suggests your next
Poison is the venomous fluid that's burning through my veins, I injected it
Puppeteer of the blood and tears, I perfected it
The hole inside my soul doesn't show in my reflection bitch
Metropolis of monogamy
Society
Dying dichotomy
Lack autonomy with who I am and who I wanna be
Cleverly lifted lever, especially meant to be gifted
Never accepted the difference
I'm left with amusement as I endeavor to bliss eluding, the fantasy of religion
Consistency of illusion
Corruption of love and hatred
Concluding reality is polluted
I drain the sewer to prove that when you win you lose
I needed me bigger noose to carry the burden
I murder myself for the purpose of yours
The led'll disperse, bring red to the church, when Bloody Mary begs for a burn
Are you White, are you black?
Do you fight with the pride of a badge?
Or the thrill to fill a page? Put a knife in your mask
A knee on your neck, I bleed on the crest
Agree to digress, speaking bleak a freak to the rest
Too late, too many mistakes
I'll burn at the stake, be free of the weight of all of my sins
From these "well wishing, friendly actin, envy hiding snakes"
Ether all these people away, as I lay down

Many men will fall
Burning in the flame
As I lay, down down down
Withering my soul
Memories of your smile
As I lay down
As I lay down
As I lay