Mama Screaming*

This is oddly reminiscent of my mama screaming
Battered on the floor, can't stand up, her knees are weakened
She working through the weekend, while she work, nobody sees it
The memories are vivid, in the car we get to screaming

Oddly therapeutic, all emotions are forgiven
While she go to church, I'm in the motion, hardly speaking
While she work, I run in circles, looking for my meanings
I look but never find it, on a path to never seeking

Yeah, I'm watching mama screaming
Yeah, I'm watching mama screaming
Yeah, uh, I'm watching mama screaming
Yeah, uh, I'm watching mama screaming

I told them to sink,
Sink in the sounds and we sink and inflated
I'm sinking, just wasted the sink water running
I'm running in place till I slip, become faded

Progressively,
I saw the work that I put in turn back into talent
Sacrilegious, I drank out of the chalice
Put stronger liquor in there, give us a challenge!

I veered from the path that I paved,
Ever since like 6th Grade, I was seeking regards as a valid
I lost the needs for the social approval
When I heard they listened to DJ Khaled

I got a job, my perspective has changed
Up in Mad Greens, still whipping up salads
I still struggle, to be content with the life that I build
But I respect my palate

Don't have the skills to be Kendrick or Cole
But I do have an ear for arrangement
I'm pushing my peers to the limits, the sky
Because I see the light in their faces

So while I'm on a ride and I'm facing it
Pacing and trying to grow up in this station
I'll be lost up in the sounds that I'm creating
Yeah,

I told them to sink,
Sink in the sounds and we sink and inflated
I'm sinking, just wasted the sink water running
I'm running in place till I slip, become faded

Give me your reasons and motives
Drink out the pain, watch me wheeze in the morning
Weep while she mourning, my arms watching Corey
Even God felt it, the clouds, it came pouring

I had my remedy, I can't ignore it
Had to cut off all my friends to ignore it
The constant temptation of booze had me soaring, abnormal
Ever since Trey's, I was sober

Remember them winters got colder
I loved the snow up in Denver and Boulder
Now I'm applying to Denver and Boulder
Miss all the homies got left Minnesota

Me and Woody, he would whip his Toyota
Me and David, we were Jedi like Yoda
I couldn't breathe, I collapsed in a coma
Scar on my face and what's left, the aroma

Life of regret has me sinking, go deeper
The scar on my knee is a keeper
I got it a Storm when I started playing keeper
Missing my dad, I would sob in wife beaters

Run up on him, I was on other timing
Yeah, I miss Emma, where there's no silver lining
I'll be dead before they catch me lying
Me, Trey, and Connor were tyrants

The homecoming night, I was stranded with Trey
Took us five hours to walk to his place
My feet were burned, but I linked up with Connor
Walked two more miles, I listened to Frogger

The summer got hotter and hotter
COVID, we hooped in the back without water
I became reserved, I haven't been me
So I sink in the sounds on repeat

I told them to sink,
Sink in the sounds and we sink and inflated
I'm sinking, just wasted the sink water running
I'm running in place till I slip, become faded

I told them to sink,
Sink in the sounds and we sink and inflated
I'm sinking, just wasted the sink water running
I'm running in place till I slip, become faded

I said, look what became of me
All potential took back into peasantry
My mental is fucked and I'm miserable
One broken family radiates

My neighbors just fine by the looks of it
Ready to book it, send me away to the air
I fall like a leaf in the middle of Autumn
I coasted through life with no care

I fell short and brought shame and my family name
If I could, I would do it again
The memories made will be fueling the rest of my life
We were doves in the wind

All the songs that I made fueled my descent to the grave
I'm wishing you well
YSG, eppy can tell
Sauseg0dK, you fucking failed!