In Smiles and Solitude (Sink in...)

Standing by the frosted glass as the snow begins to fall
I can't help but dwell upon the fact I've found myself here again
Restless, anxious, pining for the days we used to share
Tied up together in smiles and solitude
When we were beyond words, beyond language, languishing in love
And the majesty of every minute moment
The inner voice intruding that it wasn't my moment at all
But merely my turn and regardless of how hard I tried
It was never meant to be and it would always end up this way

Sink in sink into the mud
Don't hold your breath
It just makes it worse
Just makes it worse
Sink in sink into the mud
Don't hold your breath
It just makes it worse
Just makes it worse

Crumbling in decay, destroyed like two toppling towers
Angry eyes, venomously spitting vitriol like a snake of self doubt
Sadistically mocking from the other side of an empty bed
Laughing and singing in the same tone
Are you worthless? Are you feeling this heart beat inside my chest
Do I mean anything to you at all
Why are you so distant? Why are you so fucking cold
Why am I standing here in silence instead of wrapped up inside you
Why the distrust? Why the angry days of silence
Between single word responses, acting as if everything is fine
Why do I feel more alone with you than I ever felt when I was by myself

Sink in sink into the mud
Don't hold your breath
It just makes it worse
Just makes it worse
Sink in... sink into the mud
Don't hold your breath
It just makes it worse
Just makes it worse

I wish the snow would bury me and put an end to this fear
This worry, this wicked stress that chews at my stomach
So ferociously I can't even sleep
Watching as your footprints into darkness fill with snow
And praying to whatever god or patron saint of heartbreak is listening
That this is all in my head and that there is still love for me out there
Inside your head or inside your heart
Staring blankly as the snow continues to fall outside
In smiles and solitude
Until the crimson stain of your tail lights fade into darkness
And the intrusive thoughts slip their blade across my throat once more

Standing by the frosted glass as the snow begins to fall
I can't help but dwell upon the fact I've found myself here again
Restless, anxious, pining for the days we used to share
Tied up together in smiles and solitude
When we were beyond words, beyond language, languishing in love
And the majesty of every minute moment
That inner voice intruding that it wasn't my moment at all
But merely my turn and regardless of how hard I tried
It was never meant to be and it would always end up this way

No matter how hard I tried

Sink in... sink into the mud
No matter how hard I tried
Don't hold your breath
It just makes it worse
Just makes it worse

Sink in... sink into the mud
No matter how hard I tried
Don't hold your breath
It just makes it worse
Just makes it worse

Sink in