Once Again

It's crazy
I can see so vividly
Every second couldn't be
Everything taken instantly
Even though we weren't as close
You was still like kin to me
You was still my family

It was
Thursday afternoon, Normal day went to school
Lost the Blue Moon first time
Hide my mood
Took a seat, he hit my arm and said
"Aye yo look at this"
I look and I say
"Bruh where you finding all these chicks"

He say "aye I got my ways"
Then gets caught by the teach
But he stay finneseing even got oatmeal for the free
We laugh it off as we heading to the next class
Got a project due
But we chilling in the back

Sitting bored cause "this man really talking bout what?"
"Nigga I don't even know I'm tryna look at her butt"
"Wait Bruh aren't you talking to a girl now"
"Yea and she crazy so if I die yea you know how"
(What?)

After that I'm heading home
But stay up my nigga
We'll link tomorrow, do the project
Don't get caught up nigga
Now it's Friday, don't gotta go till 10:56
I felt strange so I played games to shake the feeling

Then I get call
"Who is that" "oh it's Moms"
I say hello but she crying so I know something off
She asked me
"Have you talked to your friends"
"Have you heard anything cause I just heard about him"

I say "Ma what you mean"
"Who you talking bout"
"I gotta call saying Chris passed away that's what that about"
I gasp
It feel like heart skip a beat
As I hang up the phone
And I scurry to my feet

To put on my clothes
Gotta hurry head to school
Till I get a text to my phone saying everything was true
"Aye man, Chris was pronounced dead last night"
I felt my mind shake and tears start to enter eyes

Memory's rushing in mind, make me question why
God why'd you take him?! You took his whole life
Frustration and Sadness as I drove to the school
Didn't want it to be real but I seen it was all true

Everyone outside
I rush to find out what went down
My Mans told me "It was his Mom, she shot him down"
"What HOW WHY"
But I can't hold anger cause Tears filling up my eyes

I walk thru the school, I see sadness everywhere
But I gotta be the man, I can't show no despair
So I comfort and try to make these people happy
But I'm not happy
They see right thru my action

I learned later his life was taken over words
"We gotta see it as a bless"
But it feels like a curse
I don't understand why you really gone
But now that you in heaven
I know that you is on

It's so much more that I really got to say
But I really rather just say it to your face
It's been a long time without you, my friend
But I'll tell you all about it when I see you once again

Love you Chris