Out On A Whim

Yo, it's just me dropping in to let y'all know
Keep doing what you're doing man
I admire y'all so much
The fight and the battle I see y'all taking on everyday

And the passion to follows y'alls dreams bro,
It's unreal
Just know the passion and the fire that y'all do
And fight for everyday does not go unseen or unnoticed

I don't know what's gotten into me
I was crazy initially then I had an epiphany
That I'm the epitome of a motherfucker they should learn to follow religiously
But don't try to fuck with me, I'll act out viciously

Let a shot go out the skin and he had an iron deficiency
I fucking blew his mind like seeing Santa on Christmas Eve
I can't have no sympathy when I have the ability
To get rid of you motherfucker before you get rid of me

Got the wrath of the beast and the heart of a lion
Smoking so much fucking weed it almost feels like I'm flying
Never been afraid to bleed so I ain't afraid of dying
Fucked around and sprayed the heat and now his whole family's crying

I'm a product of disaster but I'm deciding my fate
Putting thoughts on this paper fucking concealing my hate
Staying up late, doing what it takes to be great
I guess it's time to hit the gym it's hard to carry this weight

Jumped over the sharks and swam till I found the nearest lake
I'm in my own lane y'all ain't got what it takes
You can have me fifteen minutes I ain't taking no breaks
Been known to push the limits now I'm raising the stakes
Made plenty mistakes so many promises made
But you swore to cross your heart and take that shit to the grave
Should've known it from the start that I was gonna get betrayed
Cause I know your fucking family and the path that they laid

And the games that they played
That taught you how to be a bitch
Yeah you swore to hurt me motherfucker but I ain't seen you since they opened the gates
And let you out of that place
You probably somewhere hiding thinking about all this progress I made

I overcame everything god damn it I ain't afraid of shit
Alright get em Ruda
Tell them motherfuckers

Ha ha ha Ruda
Let's go

I gotta be sharper than a sword so I chose to grab the pen
It's easy to storm the castle when you know the dragon within
Even with all these mechanisms I built up for defense
I know all my weaknesses now so it's tough to resist

My red flags make easy targets how the fuck could I miss
I see myself at the end of the scope but I'm losing my grip
Holding on to the end of my rope going down with the ship
Almost lost all hope and I was losing my shit
Presented with a choice to make but I'm not choosing to quit
Sifting through reasons airing grievances on a whim

Juggling my emotions as I struggled to make sense
Uncomfortable under the surface till I outgrew my skin

I hooked up with Ceo nobody outdo me since
Yeah I outgrew religion never outgrew my sins
I seen and done a lot of shit I never want to do again
For I'll be condemned I gotta find a way to circumvent
But it's hard to avoid all the malcontent and malice
Optimism takes practice and it can be a challenge
You gotta counterweight all the hate to stay balanced
To be great takes more than talent

I match all my hard work with the same madness
Yeah it's hereditary but I still manage
I made way too many mistakes but I ain't damaged
Y'all are damaged goods I got what it takes and y'all can't stand it

Now watch me landscape the canvas
Paint a picture for the doubters this grim reaper sowed his own flowers
A daunting tasks to some that's cause most of y'all are cowards
But I'm ready to put in my ten thousand hours
Ruda

Hey man I love y'all so much y'all mean so much to me man and my sobriety
Let's keep fighting
Holler back at me y'all, peace