Dichotomy

It's a difficult dichotomy to deal with
I just wanna be expressive but I oughta be corrected
When I'm lost I preach a message that is obviously dead then
I'm unarmed my cheeks are red and
In my palm there is knot of tangled tenets
I'm disarmed when my alarm is not turned on cuz I forget it
For too long my head is on my pillow honestly pathetic
Head is soft but at what cost?
The ancient problem is synthetic
I don't wanna be distraught and so I'll pause before the credits

Time to edit up my story board of life
I have faltered on my journey I won't let it happen twice
If I mess up my perspective has addressed it will survive
Cuz I'm aware there is an arc before my destiny arrives
And I ain't entitled to any given outcome
I've wrote about some but I'm outdone by the alpha
Proud but now about to meet my downfall
If I don't allow in the power of powers
Know that I'm bout to speak a little bit louder
No coward living in the peak hour seize power is the goal of each tower
Devour any who sees how the whole earth has been turning 180
Complaining with spirituality waning
Believe in a crystal you're lost in a daze
And refuse being saved by the life truth and way
Call me crazy but I think we're needing a change
Put your hand in the air if you believe the same
See the demonic ways evil tip toed it's way from the grave now we claim it's ok to be crazy
In disbelief enough said
Wish we'd simply compete for our heads instead we let the beast in our bed
And sleep with evil easily get lazy a tad and that's opened an onslaught
Hold back what I know but I'm prone to pop
Open with a whole lotta gold I got
Owe truth to all those who follow C-DOT

So emphatic I'm bold but I know the average
Joe don't really wanna know of my gold so I don't go at him
I'm hopeful he comes to know of my gold but he's so distracted
Sporadic he's a sin addict through God he can be impacted
I don't judge because I have sinned just like the next guy
But when they take pride in sin that's what I despise
I will not stand by while they try to deny the truth
Sin is leading Souls right into the fire!

Bet you never thought C-DOT could do this
Forgot I go off and talk about sin
Heads falling apart they lost demented
Strayed far from the God who offered this gift
Of living eternally sinning been hurting me
The only normalcy for me's absorbing the
Peace of the Spirit I hear it he's hurting deep
World up in arms definitely ain't worshiping
Holy cannoli the people are hectic currently bounded to being a skeptic
Got no reception they can't hear the message
Internally dead and refusing repentance
Directly rejecting the Words in the leather
Apparently they're so amazing and better
But really their character's soft as a feather
Don't mess with The Word unless you want the letter X
Written beside your name aiming at fire wait
There is a higher way somebody died to save
If we align in faith and we desire change
Or would you like to stay back in a quiet place
Hating your life in pain sin and then hide your face
Thinking your time's a waste ticking your life away
Minutes will fly away decades of life in vain
But when you die the day won't be the brightest eh?
Ay Ay Ay Wait!
Man how can I lead when I'm not on my feet?
I look at my life look over to Christ
Then look at my pride like how can I preach?
I'm down on my knees Lord help me to see
And help me to be who you've called me to be
I see that I'm lacking conviction distracted and distant
I'm not where you say I should be...

Ooh man let me take a breath hate to stress
I've been takin' tests shaking me out my place
Take a page out of Revelation this
Tribulation's a major pest discombobulated
Here I lie awake on my chaos bed late again I can't wake up
Am I lazy or just afraid of this change that I'm in?
Complacent and apathetic to shame but next day I'm desperate to strangle it
Tangled in lies of chains while caged up in sinful ways
This world is enslaved by Satan but Jesus Christ is the way!

It's a dichotomy honestly wanna be following
Calling for God when I'm caught in adultery
With my own thoughts they've been taunting me constantly
Falling away to thought process idolatry
Copping ideas like Oh Henry's on Halloween
Dollar Tree prices they're cheap as in almost free
Not worth the cost though I learned when I got 18
Now an adult can't be coddled by ease!
Building and building and building it up
I got feelings I'm feeling em' not giving up
Hard to deal with my fear if I'm nearing a rut
And I feel as if tyranny's sneering for blood
All my lyrics are real I ain't here for a buck
If I was then I wouldn't be here I'd give up
When I sucked and I wrestled with tears in the cut
So what's up? Now I'm here I'm not giving up
I'm washed in the blood