Chronicle

As of late I ponder ya my thoughts get loud
All I do is wander there are constant bouts
I just want the answers for the "lost in" realm
But I doubt that I'll ever get out this drought
As of late I ponder ya my thoughts get loud
All I do is wander there are constant bouts
I just want the answers for the "lost in" realm
But I doubt that I'll ever get out this drought

Growing up little kid man I was innocent
Living life was simple then school sports and then my friends
Didn't think much of stuff since I was just having fun with it
Till one day I got hit my brain it suffered a concussion and
I was left there questioning sitting in my room
Dwelling in the darkness my development was screwed
Character was tested while I settled in for two whole months
Inside myself I wondered what makes sense where's proof?
My story arc was set up from there man I would solely start
Questioning the simple things of life like why should I embark
On a journey to success when even if I hit the mark
It won't fulfill me it would only give me fun just for a lark
Imminent was the overthinking which it did commence
Crippling any action that was meant for an intent
Influence changing my perception so spontaneous
It's crazy this is how it all started taking baby steps

As of late I ponder ya my thoughts get loud
All I do is wander there are constant bouts
I just want the answers for the "lost in" realm
But I doubt that I'll ever get out this drought

I now go quick going through the motions
Hoping I lose focus so I no longer sit hopeless
Wonder about my spirit driven purpose where I'll go if
I travel on the road that is narrow hope I don't slip
But I won't if I just take a step back
But I can't because I am not fulfilled where I'm at
Gotta keep it moving forward ya I know I'll get attacked
But it's worth it in the end if I possess what I lack
Ya life seem dry
But I cannot deny the light in the truth when revealed to these eyes
Sometimes I wish that I could not see why?
Because there would be no responsibility
On the surface seems like that'd be amazing
But the truth is it'd be bleak
Man I still cannot even believe just how insanely
Sheerly empty pedalling off's been leaving me
It is severely costing me and the evidence is manifested in me
Extremely clearly proof's in the pudding when I lose my footing
Deliberately because I am looking
I ask for delivery from evil and yet I am stooping down to it's level
Deserve a medal my souls unsettled

As of late I ponder ya my thoughts get loud
All I do is wander there are constant bouts
I just want the answers for the "lost in" realm
But I doubt that I'll ever get out

Seems that a couple splashes I've made have become distractions
Detracting me away from the path I ought to take hope I haven't
Come even half of the way
To leading a pack of tamed Sheep either backward or stray
Attacked like a prey of Satan's a hazard don't play cuz after the game
You're actually at bay trust I've calculated I'm a Jack of all trades
One day I got a task to embrace next day got a task that I have to erase
My smile fades I start break the cracks attain a grasp of faith
I pave my way grey dark in shade Brain Waves they changing as of late
Wait