Don't Go Backward

That place was never really ever what I wanted it to be
That space could never end up being what I saw inside my dreams
By now it seems unreal
The way that I still feel this need to heal
From everything concealed

Your face was never really ever honest with me
Like your way of faking what you mean to make life a scripted scene
I woke up in some kind of state and thought, this is why people medicate
It's like my whole life happened today
Where do you get off anyway

We used to round the corner and we smiled at the sun
We used to trace the border between what we'd lost and won
We used to sit on the corner, we were waiting for the sun
I was mining for words in disorder, thinking, "what have I done?"

I'm going back to that city to dress in whatever I want to wear
I'm going back to that city in tall black boots and reddish hair
I'm going back to that city with some godforsaken flair
I'm going back to that city, now I'm learning not to care

You're getting stuck up in your head again
You know that this is a dead end
Stop saving waste that you should spend
Stop dropping what you should defend
Everyone seems to know something you don't
But they follow a path you know you won't
This limb can only support you alone
Venture farther, claim to be grown

Go back but don't go backward
Like a woman with all the answers
At least the ones that matter
You're still mending what was fractured
I woke up in some kind of state and thought, damn, I need to meditate
Don't pretend that it's too late
You know not every path is straight

We used to round the corner and we smiled at the sun
We used to trace the border between what we'd lost and won
We used to sit on the corner, we were waiting for the sun
I was mining for words in disorder, thinking, "what have I done?"

I'm going back to that city to dress in whatever I want to wear
I'm going back to that city in tall black boots and reddish hair
I'm going back to that city with some godforsaken flair
I'm going back to that city now I'm learning not to care