not a song just venting

You could at least call and say you proud
Made my first song 'bout you look at me now
Seen you in target the other day with the reason that you ain't mine
But I love you so I ain't mad at you for the way that bring me down
Old friends calling talking 'bout Tav I ain't know you was famous
I talk bout killin' in my songs I'm still the family baby
Old pics on snap when I reflect I wanna call Naimon
It's been four years since you was mine guess you could call me crazy

Cause I'm still waiting for the promises you made me
I don't even know why you hate me
All I needed was yo love you could of saved me
I noticed way before things changed you was changing
I feel like I did what I was supposed to do
I put my pride to the side and put my all in you
I tried way to many times to get over you
We did the same shit but I just ain't as strong as you yeah
Remember when you told me that it's all in my head
Bae if that's the truth then why that nigga in yo bed
If I ain't show you that I'm for you then you woulda never left
And every time I try to leave I think about the things you said

You broke our promise and that broke me too
Lose feelings but then stay that's what we always do
Then yo touch don't feel good but we run from that truth
You ain't 'gon find someone like me it ain't no one like you
'Gon head and get another body
I'll wait around shit someone probably 'gon tell me bout it
You bad as hell I just ain't happy it ain't no way around it
Least you could do is bring my heart back to where you found it
I missed my ex whole time we was together
Cause I wasn't happy but I ain't 'gon lie that bitch ain't treat me better
But look we all know how the first two months be feeling special
You can't call me now and all you did hope you regret it

I be feeling you don't want me got me thinking bout my other options
Force myself to eat and I can't sleep I just wanna call you
You feel good just like drugs you know I do it often
I'm addicted to yo lies and you ain't ever honest
Like who knows what you doing
Lord knows what you doing
God knows I'm going through it
My friends know that I feel stupid
I took a bitch to the movies and we kissed Ion know what I'm doing
Tried to use her to forget you but I can't do it
We better off starting with someone new
It hurts to say it but I think it's true
Look how I act and then look at you
We can barely be together in the same room
It ain't shit that I could fix it ain't nothing I could do
How many times can I fuck you out yo attitude
How many times I'm gon hug you when I'm mad at you
How many times we gon realize that I'm bad for you
How many times you gon see that I'll chase after you
How many times you gon realize what you not doing
How many times has that put me in a bad mood
This can't be the girl I fell for it's just not you

Don't ask who calling me you already know
It's that bitch that Tav can't get over
It's that bitch no matter what she do she can have my shoulder
It's the girl way before SFE when I felt homeless
It's the girl made me forget that I was even hungry
I moved to Florida just for school you still would always call me
It's the girl that I had wanted ever since she saw me
It's the love that I had killed I'll take it as a zombie