Morose

Yeah, if I lose my mind tomorrow
Would you stay with me?
Would you be down to follow me?
Even tho' I couldn't tell where I'm going
It's all blurry now

Thought I was climbing but clearly I'm falling
And I don't really know how much I got left
Tank feels empty, nearest gas station's miles ahead
But I ain't pressed, my best friend used to always say
Everything happens for a reason
Aftermath can be delayed. Yeah

I want to believe that
But I feel morose (uh)
And I want to believe that
But I don't see
Highs to my lows

And I want to believe that
Trust me I want to
But I feel morose
And I want to believe that
But where are highs to my lows

The fucking fridge is empty again?
What did I work for this month?
Paycheck goes down the drain
And I don't spend
No listen, you don't understand
I don't drink, I don't smoke
I don't go out, I don't talk on the phone

I don't have my lightbulbs on
When I'm not in the room
I make food by myself, cut my hair
You'd assume, I have lot of money saved up
But from where?
I'm not from USA I make ten dollars a day
And I try so fucking hard to be all smiley and happy

But what else can I do?
The only thing I'm good at is rapping
And then I go online to see some fucker shit even on that
I act like it doesn't effect me
Inside I'm eating myself
And that's when I go incognito
Tryna find a solution

But everything I get is
People have it worse you should loosen up
It's not as bad as it could be
Always remember
After the storm comes a rainbow
Don't ever surrender
Bro trust me

I want to believe that
But I feel morose (uh)
And I want to believe that
But I don't see
Highs to my lows

And I want to believe that
Trust me I want to
But I feel morose
And I want to believe that
But where are highs to my lows