Sober Thoughts

I thought that it would fix everything
But I still feel like a sinking ship
And the bags that are plastered beneath my eyes
Are not at all helping my relationship
And I would say that I hate me too
But that would sound like I compliment fish
So maybe I'll dye my hair
So it gives off the impression that I care a little bit

Every time I think about it, I have your picture in my mind
The white and red lines are covered up by the butterflies
I can't really say that I'm a nice guy
And my social skills are lacking
ADHD mixed with caffeine, dancing in the road just to feel dopamine
So sure we can meet up but I'm pretty sure we'd end up saying nothing

I knock a few back so I think that now it's time, that I
Tell you something that I end up regretting come morning time
When I drink, I think, and my thoughts get run over
The times that I cry are not when I'm sober
But I know that I'll forget it all by the hangover
Just gotta hope that by tomorrow I still have a lover

I feel like I'm five again
I cry and thoughts in my mind go five hundred miles per hour again
Feeling I thought I got past, I feel it now stronger than ever again
Few hundred shots of vodka won't be enough to fix them problems
Although it might be pick your poison, I picked poison Ivy

Why am I such a coward? I don't face my feelings, I cower
I'd rather cave than have any power I'd rather cave than have any

I knock a few back so I think that now it's time that I
Tell you something that I end up regretting come morning time
When I drink, I think, and my thoughts get run over
The times that I cry are not when I'm sober
But I know that I'll forget it all by the hangover
Just gotta hope that by tomorrow I still have a lover

I'm getting sick of this unreciprocation
And I know it's not imagination
I could say I love you a million times and that still won't explain it
I know you like other people so if you need to just break it

I promise I won't cry cos I don't think I can
There's no way to fix it so pass me the can
Never trust your heart cos it doesn't have a backup plan
Might as well bury my head in the sand