Enchanted

Guess I'm not as strong as I pretend to be
I'm dead inside and my body like a cemetery
Locked in my mind and my thoughts draining my energy
Sometimes I wanna cry but I got no tears left in me
Pity me
I don't need no hate i already belittle me
She say she hate me and I agree
I'm also sick of me
Literally
I swear these thoughts will be the death of me
But it's a better way to go than how I really plann to leave
Paint me as a villian if you must
But I'd be damned if i let another human break my trust
And I've been through too much
I ain't even gotta tell you i can show you all my scars
My mind is a cage man I'm always feeling stuck
My mind is a cage that's why im all these dropping bars
And sometimes
Man I feel like giving up
I wanna disappear go join my brother in the stars
Searching for peace like finding tears in the ocean
Tryna find balance but it's hard I'm barely coping
Pain and moping
My days are exhausting
I'm Traumatized i can't sleep i'm barely dozing
Smiling on the outside but inside I'm always hurting
Concealing my pain you won't see it on the surface
Locked in my room stay inside close the curtain
Can't let you see my struggle I don't wanna be a burden
Like glass I've been broken
Lotta things i could tell you but it's better left unspoken
Tired of dealing with things that require me to be open
Really thought i was getting better not really i was hoping
Don't depend on anyone that shit really broke me
My heart was pure at one point it was golden
Mama said I'm a mountain but the pain got me shaken
I gave too much love but a lotta peace from me was taken
Walk around with my head high but I'm feeling low
On my busy days time be moving real slow
Tired of fighting with life, i just let it flow
Come whatever comes, go whatever go
I'm at the point where I really don't even care no more
Tired of forcing things to which I got no control
If you wanna go, i won't stop you there's the fuckin door
Just leave me alone