Heavy Heart

Life ain't gon' be what it ain't gon' be
I'm just playin' my part
Tell me you sorry and you gon' change
No, you just sorry you caught
I get in front of a mic, I'm a artist
With music, I'm sharing my art
I've been betrayed too many times
I'm afraid I'm shattin' my heart
Too soon, yeah, take off, I came in the game
Walk through with a heavy heart
Too smooth, yeah, big boss, I came in the game
Walked through with a heavy heart
I've been betrayed too many times
Want a reset, don't know where to start
I wanna forgive, but it's hard to forget
Everyday I'm reflectin' on every scar

My Grandma say, baby, you special
And as you grow up, don't you ever forget it
Walk through the game with my heart on my sleeve Plenty decisions I make got regretted
Addicted to syrup, when I would be rappin'
I'm slurrin' when mixin', I would try to edit it
Still at my worst, I sound good as yo favorite rapper, Cause that nigga be soundin' repetitive
Tryna be positive, why you so negative
My biggest flaw, I see toxic as fetish and
Not hard to see that I come from a broken home
So all this in me is too far embedded
And I pray to God, go to war with the devil
Got dreams of him constantly fixin' my heart
All day I'm stressin' at night, ain't no sleep
So I stare at the moon till I glow in the dark
I don't wanna argue, so baby, don't start
You knew what this was
You knew me from the start
My biggest fear is being found vulnerable
So just know I'm protectin' my heart
Who is to say that rough is the reason
For seemingly easily driftin' apart
You hit my spine with some sharp as a dart
No, you not sorry, you sorry, you caught

Life ain't gon' be what it ain't gon' be
I'm just playin' my part
Tell me you sorry and you gon' change
No, you just sorry you caught
I get in front of a mic, I'm a artist
With music, I'm sharing my art
I've been betrayed too many times
I'm afraid I'm shattin' my heart
Too soon, yeah, take off, I came in the game
Walk through with a heavy heart
Too smooth, yeah, big boss, I came in the game
Walked through with a heavy heart
I've been betrayed too many times
Want a reset, don't know where to start
I wanna forgive, but it's hard to forget
Everyday I'm reflectin' on every scar

Response that I'm gettin' this shit really wicked
I'm tryin' my best to stay away from you bitches
You wantin' my money, and love my attention
But never once sit with a nigga and listen
This shit really crazy, I don't understand it
This hoe now date from a whole nother planet
My heart went into em, it came out so damaged
You knew your intentions and had the advantage
With niggas that's after me, sayin' I'm a rapper leave
I'm a real nigga who rappin', I trap to be
Y'all tryin' to fuck with my mental capacity
That is the reason you don't got access to me
Makin' a choice to keep doin' it excessively
Come in my kitchen and fuck up the recipe
Solo, I don't even want you to stand next to me
Don't got it in you to break out the best in me
Eh, I'm high as a bitch while collectin' my thoughts
The heart that I had, I put it in a vault
Ain't nobody with me, just havin' these talks
Life gon' be what it ain't gon' be,
And the life that you have is the life that you caught
I can't point a finger or blame someone else
For all of the bullshit that I ever saw

Life ain't gon' be what it ain't gon' be
I'm just playin' my part
Tell me you sorry and you gon' change
No, you just sorry you caught
I get in front of a mic, I'm a artist
With music, I'm sharing my art
I've been betrayed too many times
I'm afraid I'm shattin' my heart
Too soon, yeah, take off, I came in the game
Walk through with a heavy heart
Too smooth, yeah, big boss, I came in the game
Walked through with a heavy heart
I've been betrayed too many times
Want a reset, don't know where to start
I wanna forgive, but it's hard to forget
Everyday I'm reflectin' on every scar