New Year's Resolution

It's almost January, momentum
Been letting myself dream
It's a step in the right direction
After being stuck in the same routine

Closer to 30 than to 20 now
It doesn't seem right somehow
Another year around the corner
Wanna speed it up or slow it down

Like good things are waiting
But I'm missing my exit
Stuck in the fast lane
Heading straight for depression

My New Year's resolution
Is that, next year, I'll have new one
Not be in the same damn place again
In 365 days
Hope it's 365 ways different
That's my New Year's resolution

There's a door on this place and I could leave
Maybe I could change a lot of things
Been planning my escape for years
But I'm still sitting here

Cause I keep waiting
For some elusive knock on my door
Meanwhile the life I'm living
Eclipses the one I'm living for

My New Year's resolution
Is that, next year, I'll have new one
Not be in the same damn place again
In 365 days
Hope it's 365 ways different
That's my New Year's resolution

Cause I see a room bathed in sunshine
I see brown eyes and a smile somehow more familiar than mine
I've seen it in my dreams at night
About a million times

And there's a weight off my shoulders
And there's joy, and there's hope, and there's relief
It's all right there, if I could only reach

My New Year's resolution
My New Year's resolution
My New Year's resolution
My New Year's resolution

Staring too long at couples in love
Rewatching movies, it's not enough
I remember small moments in time when I believed my life to be better than daydreams
I would play back my own memories
That's where I wanna be
That's where I wanna be
That's my New Year's resolution