Opaque Thoughts

I caught a glimpse of the sun
While it was rising at 6:33
With morning breeze
I was driving to my job wondering if I'm
Just a cog in the machine
Will I be working till the end of my means
What does that mean
What kind of service do I provide to society
I can't even figure out if people lie to me
So I decline to speak about the
Things that wire me
Tie me down quietly put sticky on my mouth
Then I hope you hire me don't ever fire me
And if I give myself entirely to working hourly
Until I'm 65 I'm gonna die without retiring
My body's tired G

I'm only young and I don't want to live in a world
Where opinion is more deadly than guns
Matter of fact
No word of a lie I put every ounce of
Heart and blood on my raps
I pray that I can give back to whatever
Source of happiness that I'm deserving
But frankly the tables are turning
My list of fables burning through the paper
Where I've written In reality I know
I'm really soft as kitten no kidding
I feel like a kid in the cold begging
For mummas mittens waiting for an
Intermission so my intuition will kick in
I'm sitting thinking about religion got me
Contemplating if I should give in and just Believe in G O D
I want god to believe in me and
All the things that I'm holding against
My main artery
I'm honouring my honesty honestly
I've been targeting my darkness
To shed some light
On the hardness of harnessing life
Outside Compton and hardship

I've been around shy of 2 decades
So what point is there for me to start shit
This the expression of an artist wit a tarnished heart that's
Writing in the entrance of sky city apartments
While my brothers havin another baby at starship
And I'm astonished he got pulled too far apart
From the journey that he had started
Soon we'll be departed and that kid will have
An uncle who's his fathers cousin
A white man that's
Always buzzin
Always drugging
Always loving
Always motherfucking waiting for something

To let the commas in
Deny the common sense
And compliments that you be commenting
Don't need no confidence to conquer
The common ground that your coming from
Taking notes of my accomplishments
I count on every single one of them
To push me towards the future that I been promising

My family that carve the man in me
They plan to see the depth of the dent that I create in the industry
There's so many roots in this tree I hope it don't fall over
Sick of living in loss and losing my winning streak
I need some fucking closure
Space in my closet more flow than a faucet
This bubble Im trapped in
I'm desperately trying to pop it
I Couldn't give a fuck about the profit
I'm giving life to this object
That we call a microphone

I got no caller ID on
I got these chords that I lean on
So if I lose my balance i'd be gone
And I don't ever want to return
I'm searching for the urn
Cuz it's my turn to burn
Carry my words n bury me in the dirt
Please
Forgive me for the pain and the hurt
Please
Forgive me for the pain and the hurt
Please
Forgive me for the pain and the hurt
Please
Forgive me for the pain and the hurt
Please
Forgive me for the pain and the hurt
This meetings adjourned