New Year's Dissolution

I wanted to do drugs in high school
Cus all the other kids were having fun
While I was spending my youth
Dreaming of the things I'd almost done

Since then I've found better ways to
Pass the time in beers when you have gone
Drinking back old memories
Until the future's numb

I wanted to be more to you
Than I had ever been to anyone
I wanted to sleep in and wake up
Nothing left for me to prove to anyone
I wanted to get higher here
Than they had ever seen in anyone

But my brain wanted to fail me more
Than I thought that it could before
And the world wanted to scare me
With some shit I hadn't known
But I learned that I could survive
With a quote even when half alive
So I sang
"We are love, we are love"

I wanted to do drugs in high school
Cus all the other kids were having fun
How the child grows from fear to fall behind the other ones
Since then I've found better ways to
Pass the time in beers when you have gone
So here's a toast
To another year's mistakes and rights gone wrong

I wanted to breathe easy
My god, did you have other plans
I wanted to fall out of love
But learned that sometimes you just
Can't

Cus my brain wanted to fail me more
Than I thought that it could before
The world wanted to crush me
With some shit I hadn't known
But I learned that I could survive
With a quote even when half alive
So I sang
"We are love, we are love"

Feels like I've been
Distant and listless my whole life
I think it's time
To stop being the nice guy
And try to be kind

So it's the fourth fucking anniversary
Of me saying that this year would be better to me
And it's the last time I'll be praying for a peace I've never known
Cus I don't wanna spend another year repeating
Shit about how down I've been feeling
Saying I'll feel better when I've finally found a home

"We are love, we are love"