Where Do I Fit in?

Yeah
Look

I write this letter in my XO sweater
Just to let you know I hope that you get it together
As a father, I hope you treat my brothers way better
But as a man, I hope you know that the ties have been severed
Remember days when I waited to see you forever
Try to hide my sadness like I don't care it's whatever
True colours get shown, the resentment is grown
For the fact that I feel abandoned and left on my own
I don't wanna hear no more sorry, save it, it's not accepted
(Too many times you broke me and made us all feel neglected)
Trusted you on an instinct to lead me to where I'm headed
(I struggle to come to grips but it's comforting to confess it)
Had ya head in the clouds while I was stuck on the ground
Another lost soul without hope of being found
And even though I had a good life, I often wonder just like

Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)

I'm not tryna be spiteful, I'm just tryna be honest
Thought it really don't matter, it's still part of my process
Watch every memory of you fall right out and be tarnished
I accept it and keep finessing like placing a garnish
I'll admit to you Dad, not being here wasn't bad
I still had an amazing woman help make me a man
But at times I won't lie, I find moments I cry
When I think of the lies that you told me on the fly
Had to put yourself first, yeah I get it, it's work
But when kicked to the dirt, you brush it off and get hurt
I've been feeling the latter, everyday I get madder
And I'm tired of the excuses that always sound gathered
Despite me tryna refrain, sometimes I can't fight the pain
Where is it that I fit in, what else is there to gain?
And even though I had a good life, I'm still wondering like

Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)

Can't even tell you how long that I've waited
To finally tell you what's up 'cause some days I grow jaded
Tryna let go of the pain 'cause I swear it's outdated
Feel it slipping away, all the time that's been wasted
I thank God for your presence 'cause it's taught me a lesson
Always live for confession and forget the deception
But though I know I had a good life
I often wonder just like

Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)

Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?
(Where do I fit in your life there?)
Where do I fit in your life there?