Father

(I gotta be honest man)
(I ain't been myself lately)
(Stuck in my head 24-7)
(Wondering)
(What my purpose in life is)
(Countless thoughts of dreams and visions)
(Accomplishments)
(Yet, I'm here)
(Still here)
(And I guess)
(I guess I'm not enough)

What are you doing son?
Get up and move
You cannot run forever
Why are you holding on?
Hurry and choose
We gotta work together
You know I love you son
Get off the booze
You're gonna hurt your mother
You gotta carry on
Leave me to rest
I ain't gonna live forever

I apologize
To my father above who don't see what I'm like
In this life where I'm high
I apologize
To my father in step
Who don't know what I'm like
When I'm cold to his cries
I don't recognize
All the lies that I tell to myself
When I fight in this hell, in this cell
Lost ever since, now I drown in the voices of others
Worried if my thoughts will repel

Why don't you hold my hand?
Why don't you hold my hand?
You know I understand
You gotta be a man
You gotta be a man
Why don't you hold my hand?
Why don't you hold my hand?
You know I understand
You gotta be a man
You gotta be a man

I have been watching how you handle obstacles
I have been watching how you had advanced
I have been watching how you pray for miracles
When you gon' realize it's in your hand?
I know I cannot be there when you need me
But you gon' have to pick up the bag
I know it's hard when I'm not around
But you're gonna have to stick to this path

Dig a little deeper
You ain't gon' fail
Dig a little deeper
You is a male
Dig a little deeper
Cut through the veil
Dig a little deeper
Dig a little deeper
I'll be your teacher giving advice
I'll be your friend to keep for life
I'll be your coach to get through a fight
You know I miss ya

What are you doing, son?
Get up and move
You cannot run forever
Why are you holding on?
Hurry and choose
We gotta work together
You know I love you son
Get off the booze
You're gonna hurt your mother
You gotta carry on
Leave me to rest
I ain't gon' live forever

How could you leave me?
How could you put me inside of this hole
Look what you made me
All of your promises I had to learn on my own
See how I'm lazy?
I've been under so much stress
Do you see how I'm a mess
If only you had been alive
I wouldn't have spent all this time
Holding this grief in my chest
All I wanted was some normality, though
All I wanted was a family, though
Now the relatives, they pity me, yo
I can't help but feel unwanted and broke
Oh, I get it now I'm 20 years old
Oh, I get it when you say to have hope
Life is a bitch, but it'll give you a hidden blessing on the low

Now I'm obsessed with chasing the dough
Only the money won't heal you fosho
I know but maybe it'll make me feel whole
I can assure you it definitely won't
What do you mean? Then how do I cope?
Can you not see? The damage is old
But I still bleed, it's all that I've known
Gotta be free of what you still hold

There's a will, there's a way
Ain't no pain, ain't no gain
Necessary how we take
There's a will, there's a way
Ain't no pain, ain't no gain
Even weakness is brave
Say your grace, heal your pain



Credits
Writer(s): Sean Shim
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