intro

Ive been feeling like
My life is a game that i didn't wanna play
If i had a choice i would turn it off and stay away
But i have to keep playin and that's the only choice to make
Yeah i have to keep playin cause that's the only to choice to make
Travelled round the world but nothing feels like home
Struggling by myself i always do this on my own
Feel like a burden to my parents, a burden to my friends
A burden all the time, to everybody, till the end
Too much fucking pain
And nothing left to gain
That's why I write these rhymes so I dont go fuckin insane
People telling me I need a therapist to see
Hah.but the irony's my therapist is me
Im writing all these songs i get my therapy for free
Complainin' 'bout my problems, while im gettin my degree
The music with the kush is all I'm ever gonna need
Yeah
That's what I say to myself
Maybe I'm just lying and I really need the help
Maybe it's a lie that I'm always gonna tell
Maybe it's a lie that's gonna make my life hell
Maybe it's the lie and the reason I fail
Wait.

Went and visited death and now im back
Car didn't kill me but imma kill this track
Induced to a coma but never resting in peace
Cause i was tryna stay alive having broken a piece
Broken part of my brain
All my efforts in vain
Nothing's killing the pain
Morphine still in my veins
Xanax made me inane
Now im going insane
Cause now im in the ICU but can't see nothing but shame

Paralyzed on the bed, and I can't fuckin move
Kinda wishin i was dead, cause i was nearly too
But drugs kept me alive, never thought id lose
This stupid game we call life, as if I had to choose

You won't understand the pain that ive been going through
I dont expect to be the same, i know that's just the truth
The fact i stayed aliive means that you should tune in
The fact im walkin now means that im improvin
Oh damn im runnin how
Oh damn im workin out
Oh damn im back to college just to make some money wow
Now im smashin this baddie she wearin nothing but a thong
I didn't think i would be here, i had to prove myself wrong

The point im tryna make it's not as simple as it seems
I've been poppin the xannies cause you know addiction doesnt leave
Now im coppin the Hublot, cause I'm just getting my degree
Now im poppin in Cali, i only did that shit for me
Always felt like a burden
So im determined and learnin
Now all the pain really burnin
And yeah i crashed but im swervin
Im swervin back to recovery
Yeah ill just give you the summary
I know I took a long time but got my life back in front of me

Now im focused on myself and all these stupid rhymes
Stopped tryna plan the journey, it's a total waste of time
Livin life on autopilot, that's the way to fly
Do what i wanna do, while im young and still alive

rash