White Noise

I've been listening to the rain these last six years
And the bedroom door never shuts like it should
And I'm never gonna fix it
Cuz I'm afraid that I won't hear it
And no one will ever notice anyway like I would
But you're taking on water
So I'm sleeping on your floor
Its replaying in my memories
I just gotta hear you breath

I'm still dreaming of your hair
(Dreaming of your hair)
Silently reaching for the stairs
(They were right there, they were right there)
Three years pinned against my chest
And I pray that I'm strong enough for the rest

I've been putting up fights
Underneath hospital lights
And I swear It's not about me getting my way this time
I'll close my eyes
But I can't shut my ears at night
I'm afraid that I won't hear the rain tonight

I've been dreaming of your hair
(Dreaming of your hair)
Gracefully waving at me there
(We were right there, we were right there)
Holding you tight against my chest
And I prayed that you and I would take a breath

And lately I've been scared
That it's all on me
This nervous wreck
I know how I can seem
When I'm waking at every heart beat
Punching at our mortality
And if I overstep
I hope you can see that
I'm keeping you from the depths

I've been staring at the ceiling
(I'm keeping you from the depths)
Hoping to god that I'm here for a reason
Telling myself that it is them
And I plant my feet squared against the silence