I Was Lying

I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine
I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying
Yeah, we knew I was lying, oh, we knew I was lying
I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying

Yeah, we knew I was lying
Im from a small place, but got big dreams Idolizing people on the big screen
Left home when I was like 15, I ain't never think my mom would get clean
Yeah, the shit seem way better when you on the outside looking in, don't it

More money, bring more problems Can't trust family, your friends phony, that's real
Devil been testing me still, pursuing my destiny And I still pray, multiple times of the day
But I am so far from heavenly, I got so much hate in my heart
The thoughts in my brain are too dark Some of these dudes who claiming they with you

Are really against you and you are they mark
Let me tell you, loyalty is rare Ain't nobody tell you life is gon' be fair
Can depend on one person, but one person That's the person you see in the mirror
Because you were your own worst enemy Something an OG said to me

I took the wrong road so long I just hope that you know that I'm gone if you're giving me time
I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying
So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine
I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time

I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying
Yeah, we knew I was lying
Oh, we knew I was lying
I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time

I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying
Yeah, we knew I was lying
I've learned more every day of what life is I don't wanna be the bad guy, I'm just like this
Yeah, family reunions was never invited Believe me, when no one believed in me, I did

We've been misguided, environment filthy Tryna get up out of this life before it kill me
Laying low, over three weeks sober, that's an accomplishment
But hell, y'all don't feel me, I used to tell anyone that would listen that
I'ma be rich and yeah, I'ma be famous lot of setbacks in my past can't change it

Playing with somebody's heart, that's dangerous
People tell me I'm chosen, how the hell when I'm broken
My heart is so frozen, never know what tomorrow is holding
I know that I'm lonely, I can only count on me

My trust has been stolen, leaving no matter which way that I'm going
Put on a smile, but live with regrets Put on a shine, no one to impress
All of this time, I pretend I'm fine, I'm manic depressed
Bartender, won't you pour me another one

It's the middle of the night and it's raining outside
I thought that last one would've made me forget
That I done so much wrong in my life, I can never make it alright
I wish I could reconcile, cause deep inside I'm dying

So I put on a smile, and I pretend I'm fine
I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time
I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying
We knew I was lying

We knew I was lying
I'm just another screw up, baby don't waste your time
I told you we'd be different, but we knew I was lying
We knew I was lying



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Writer(s): Kenneth Bartels
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