Don't Seek Me Out

For so long I searched for my identity
Don't seek me out because I promise that I won't be there
Wasting time on thoughts that tell me not to breathe
You know by now that I was empty and I never cared
It's enough for me, the ghost I see always creeping at my door
This sinking empty feeling found me faster than before

Now I know my monster won't go away
When every time I fly I'm yet to be amazed
(Break another wall to show me)
There's no future where I can stay
Cause in the end I know I don't belong
Don't seek me out

I find doubt in all of my securities
Distant creature (lost in the moment that's inside)
I can't see her (I know I want to be here)
Lost comfort in my sensibilities
I can't break through (Run from the monster that's inside)
Like I want to (Do you want me to be here)
It's the enemy that I can't see and it's breaking down my door
You said to me you feel free but fell faster than before

Now I know my monster won't go away
When every time I fly I'm yet to be amazed
(Break another wall to show me)
There's no future where I can stay
Cause in the end I know I don't belong
Don't seek me out

Another heart attack but I fought back but my body's wanting more
Pounding to the beat of my drum while I'm anchored to the floor

Tell me everything that I've done wrong cause I'm haunted by you now
Cause I still want you here, I want you back
I want it all but every single moment calls me
Out
No I don't need an answer now
Cause you can't feed my hungry eyes
If I'm a mess and in the way
Don't seek me out
I'm the one who let me down

Now I know my monster won't go away
When every time I fly I'm yet to be amazed
(Break another wall to show me)
There's no future where I can stay
Cause in the end I know I don't belong