Back When I Was Real

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real

Back when I was real, I had this weight on my shoulders
I could share it, cut some off it, like some ad in a folder
I was burdened, so were you, I thought I gotta be stronger
Acting younger than I was, but my mind gotten older

Yeah my mind gotten twisted in some fucked up affairs
I wanna elevate, but shit I keep on falling down stairs
Pointing fingers at a mask I rather keep in a pair
Drama happy boy, I make sure that the pleasure is theirs

But never mine, so I pushed you away
I think you kinda noticed, so you just did the same
Spending time, but not really, to get used to the pain
How things could be different, if it went another way, yeah

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real

Back when I was real, I thought that shit could be different
Thought that change was imminent, to wait the only decision
Punching the clock, to outrun my position
Of being vulnerable, my spirit killed with deadly precision

Second guessing, overthinking everything that I did
Was I righteous, was I brave or just a scared little kid
Scarred by troubles from a broken home, I'm still on a trip
Let me come home, I'm getting closer with the lyrics I spit

I'm getting realer by the minute it's too little too late
Made decisions to affect how we live life day to day
I've diminished all our chances to survive our decay
Learn a lesson so I might just say some real shit today, yeah

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real

Back when I was real, I felt like shit wasn't fake
But it's a picture, ain't a movie so it's only one take
Click clack, strike a pose, what we did everyday
I thought that we was real, but really it turned out to be a break

Of daily life, daily stress, daily lies
Baby bless, my decisions, and decide
To move on, pesticide, shit was toxic, you know why
Weren't true, really like
We would hide behind a wall that made us feel alright

Still we had fears
And the knife lost its edge
So we couldn't cut our ties, and we couldn't confess
What we were thinking on the daily, so we only digressed
Rest in peace, to our realness at last

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real

Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real with you
Back when I was real