poison myself

I was dying in my dream last night
For the first time this year, I felt fine
Felt the blade and I watched the blood
Didn't even put up a fight

Know it's something they want me to hide
But the truth will come out once I die
Wanna scream, but I can't open my mouth
I think I'm too sad to cry

So I poison myself again
You're the toxin running through my veins
And I don't think you understand
It's like I poured all my love down the drain

So I poison myself again
You're the toxin running through my veins
And I still reach out for your hand
While you slowly push me away

If anyone could've saved me
It would've been you
I forgive you for all the pain
You put me through

And I'm praying to God, please take me soon
Don't make me suffer more
But if anyone could've saved me
It would've been you

So I poison myself again
You're the toxin running through my veins
And I don't think you understand
It's like I poured all my love down the drain

So I poison myself again
You're the toxin running through my veins
And I still reach out for your hand
While I'm dying over and over again