Heavy Heart

Did it make you feel you better when you did me wrong?
That shit was hurting me to know that we ain't get along
Whole time you had it planned, I was just a pawn
Know I said I wouldn't but you in another song

I know I made some bad mistakes but we had reconciled
Was still unhappy but I loved you so I stayed around
I know that misery loves company, you stayed a while
Not in periphery, yo vision got a tunnel now

But I ain't tripping cause my vision on the same path
I learned my lesson, just like you we in the same class
How we put two and two together, this the same math
You said you loved me but you left me, can't explain that
I'm hardly rapping, I'm just venting while I'm stating facts
Our call of duty was to love each other strings attached
But you cut em, it was terminal, my favorite map

Left me to die, can't fight the feeling that I'm all alone
My granny calling me concerned I tell her nothing wrong
She fighting cancer, couldn't tell her, cause she being strong
Gun to my head, like pull the trigger, I ain't coming home
My thoughts get tangled with depression, think I need a comb
It's gotta be another way, let me pick up my phone
I unlock it and type Drake beat in my Google chrome
Who knew that I would speak my thoughts into a microphone
I started rapping for my health, I felt depression in bones
I was sad, I was low
I was practically prone

Now I'm Jazzy, I see more dimes than Karl Malone
I feel like Stockton cause you taught me how me to pass up everything that you sold
Still can't forgive you for the lies and everything that you told
Thought you was my other half, but look at how it unfold
I'm still imprisoned by some trauma, but I swear I won't fold
Served my sentence but I'm healing, guess I'm out on parole

Now I can't a trust a bitch, I'm only seeing what her mind like
Told her that my heart cold, baby this a Klondike
Even though my scars old, gotta get my mind right
I'm gone see you down the road, maybe when the time right

But I know that it's never cause I can't mess with you ever
I'm reminiscing on times when I ain't know better
You bitches had me out here writing love letters
Had me staying in the crib, like I was on tether
I had to cut you rats off, they calling me the new shredder
Now even if it's hot outside, I bet I won't sweat her
She hear me rapping now, she text me like you think you so clever

Ain't no jokes in my rhymes, bitch I ain't Heath Ledger
I can't forget them dark nights
Can't fold under pressure
I owe it to myself and all my fam, so watch this fire ignite
Flow a piece of history, every time that I write
Now they rapping all my songs, I can hear em recite
How they keep going back to one feel like Brian McKnight
Flow is undeniable, feel like Brian McKnight
Coach E really bout to bubble, got em calling me Sprite
I spit these bars like they bullets, I got the world in my hands
Just from how quick I reload, that's how you know that it's slight

Now I can't a trust a bitch, I'm only seeing what her mind like
Told her that my heart cold, baby this a Klondike
Even though my scars old, gotta get my mind right
I'm gone see you down the road, maybe when the time right

But I know that it's never cause I can't mess with you ever