Internally Bleeding

I'm not the kid I was before
But I'm certainly not the man that I adore
I want to help the people in my life
But I constantly shun them away
I don't know much
But I know I'm redundantly refusing treatment for my psychopathy
And loosing the words and there meanings
I'm Internally bleeding

Cuz I'm loosing faith
In this person I see in the mirror
This light is blinding me
And I'm filling my heart with vigor
All these sleepless nights and heartless plights
You'd think I'd have it to a science
But no I can't tell what's wrong
I'm just left here pleading
While my hearts internally bleeding

Close your eyes and open them up
Maybe you'll see a new point of view
These halls never seemed so empty
Until you left me alone in this room
I'm not the person I was before
But I'm certainly not the man I want to adore
But maybe soon I'll reach that new bloom
And turn into a man
But until then I'll sleep with this pen
And write all my nightmares and thoughts

So on and so forth

I'll bleed
I'll cry
I may just die
But I don't care because

I'm loosing faith
In this person I see in the mirror
This light is blinding me
And I'm filling my heart with vigor
All these sleepless nights and heartless plights
You'd think I'd have it to a science
But no I can't tell what's wrong
I'm just left here pleading
While my hearts internally bleeding

I'm loosing face I won't pretend anymore
You see right through me anyway
No matter the time or day
And I won't leave you behind anymore
I'll burn these bridges that lead back to her
And I'll make this battle a hefty one

Cuz I'm loosing faith
In this person I see in the mirror
This lights blinding me
And I'm filling my heart with vigor
All these sleepless nights and heartless plights
You'd think I'd have it to a science
But no I can't tell what's wrong
I'm just left here pleading
While my hearts internally bleeding
Cuz I'm loosing faith
In that person I see in the mirror
The lights blinding me
And my heart is filling with pain
All these sleepless nights and heartless plights
You'd think I'd have it to a science
No I can't tell what's wrong
I'm just left here pleading
While my hearts internally bleeding

I'd come to you
But this wall is way to high
I'd come to you
But these bricks are too strong
I'd run to you
If this wall wasn't in the way
I'd break right through for you
And we'd have our happiest day